Save me? // 5sos

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This is the secret picture Jade takes of Ashton...

-Jade-

My eyes slowly open as the light beams through the wide open windows. A check my phone and it's only 6:13am. I unlink my fingers with Calum's long ones. My eyes drift up to his sleeping figure. The light shines perfectly on him, contrasting his cheekbones.

His eyelashes rest against his cheeks as his chest rises and falls. I grab his floppy hand and play with his fingers.

"I feel you staring," his deep raspy voice startles me and sends a spiral of chills down my spin. Goosebumps rise to the surface of my skin and I shiver a tiny bit. He lazily smiles at me, keeping his eyes closed.

"Sorry," I laugh, my morning voice coming out. I move closer to him as the blanket moves off of me. I close the minuscule gap between the both of us and I close my eyes and sigh in happiness.

He buries his head into the crook between my shoulder and neck and breathes out, his warm breath sends tingles all around my shoulder area. His head returns to the pillow and he opens his eyes to meet mine. I smile at him and he sloppily smiles back.

"Hi,"

"Hey,"

I untangle my legs from his and I slowly raise my body from the warm bed. I instantly regret it because the cold wind of reality hits me. Memories from last night fill my mind and I shut my eyes tight.

Calum notices my strangled figure and raises up with me. He links his arms lazily around my hip and pulls me into him. I bow my head in towards his shoulder and I groan.

Shania's bloody face fills my mind as she looked at me, tear filled eyes and blood down her neck and chin. Useless tissues doing nothing to stop he flow of the blood. Dark red tissues scattered and overflowed around her bin. Her pleading eyes looked into mine as I stood in the doorway, unable to process what was happening.

Her eyes asked me to take away her pain, but I was unable to take away my own as I stood as a witness to the scene before my eyes.

"Shhhh it's okay, it's all over now," Calum whispers into my hair. My body shakes as the events hit me like an earthquake. He rocks me back and forth as silent tears run down my face.

I breathe in deeply and wipe my tears. Calum moves me around so that I'm sitting in his lap, facing him. He wraps his arms loosely around my waist as he looks into my eyes.

The look of concern covers his face and I feel bad. Me being in pain has caused him even more pain, and for that I feel terrible. I don't realise that another tear has taken it's place on my cheek until Calum brings one of his hands up to my face and wipes my cheek.

The pad of his thumb lingers on my face and rubs small comforting circles on my cheekbone.

"Come check Shania with me," I say to Calum. I know she wouldn't be awake but I want to see her when she's peaceful and calm.

"Of course," he stretches, allowing me to see his muscles. A faint outline of a six-pack and strong shoulder muscles show on his body. I find myself staring at his chest but I do nothing to stop. He flexes his biceps on purpose and I know that I've been caught.

I look into his eyes and he wiggles his eyebrows and winks at me. I laugh loudly causing him to laugh as well.

"Put a shirt on and let's go," I say, turning away from him as I put a bra on underneath my shirt. I clip the back and I drop my hands, allowing my shirt to drop also. I turn back to him and see his eyes staring at my wall full of pictures.