Save me? // 5sos

2.8

dedicated: @jasmineWOAHH bc she's amazing n added the whole social media series to her reading lists :* :* ilysm girlyyy

-Ashton-

[Thursday - 11:05am]

Seeing Jade run out like that, it felt like a lot more than just her running out of the classroom. When I said that there was a girl, I was hoping that she would take the fucking hint that I was talking about her. I don't want another girl, but the girl that I do want doesn't even realise that I want her.

I knew she wasn't in the best state, and I probably shouldn't have said that... but I couldn't help it. I just want her to know that I want her and I want to know if she does want me back. Fuck.

Why did I say that? I shouldn't have said that.

I tried running after her, but the hallways were just too crowded for me to run through and chase her. I don't want to think of what she is doing right now. It's currently recess break and I'm desperately trying to find the rest of my friends to tell them what happened.

Should I tell them? Wait, stupid question Ashton.

I run onto the oval and I successfully spot all the guys and girls sitting down in a circle. I run over towards them as fast as I can. They all cheer when they see me, but they stop immediately as they see my overwhelmed and anxious expression.

"What's happened Ashton?" Grace says from beside Luke. They all go from slouching around to sitting up and looking at me. I try and catch my breath before I start talking.

"W-well.... its J-Jade" I pant heavily. They all go wide eyed and I drop to the ground, my legs giving way. I move closer towards the group as they all share worried looks.

"W-what's happened?" Hayley asks in a weird tone. I shoot her a questioning look, but she just brushes it off like nothing happened. I finally gain control of my breathing and just look down to my hands.

"I tried to talk to her, but I set something off and she ran out of class and possibly is home alone now..."

As soon as I said that, Jaydn shoots up and runs off the oval. He runs off, leaving the rest of us quiet and unsure what to do. Hayley scoffs and then sits up straight.

"Girls, we're going to see her tonight." Hayley says. The girls all nod and then we all go quiet.

"So.... do you wanna hear a joke?"

"Fuck off Michael"

-Jade-

[Thursday - 4:45pm]

I don't know what's gotten into me lately.

I broke down for about 30 minutes, and then Jaydn came in and we talked. I broke down for another hour, my eyes becoming so puffy that I could barely open them again because of all the crying I had done.

I told him how I felt. I told him everything, it all just kind of poured out. Once I started, I couldn't stop. But it's okay, I trust him with my life... he is my brother. I don't know what I'd be doing right now if I didn't have him.

When I woke up from my nap from earlier, he helped me disinfect all the scratches and the massive patch of where I continuously scratched at my skin. He bandaged it up, so now my whole left forearm has a white bandage coving the whole of it. I bruised really badly from when I started hitting myself, but he covered them too. He also helped me change the bandages on my thigh from the really deep cuts.