Afraid • l.h

Chapter 19 • "He screwed up."

Tilly's POV

Ouch. Did he really just ask that?

"Well you certainly didn't give me any other impression. Just leave me alone. I want nothing to do with you." I say backing up leaving him on his own. I turn the corner and continue crying. I unlock my phone and click on my contacts. At first I think about calling Michael but then I went against my promise to him. My mum was working and so I can't call her and I also drunk alcohol which wouldn't go down well with her at all.

I decided to just sit down on the curb as there was no use no more and I had no energy or strength to walk home. I honestly just sat there for half an hour crying about how messed up this was. How naive I was. Then I started to wonder why Alex lead me on. Was he using me? Was I a joke to him? Was it me? Did I get the wrong impression?

"Tilly?" A voice I recognised to be Luke's said and I looked up. "Tilly are you crying? What happened?" He asks concerned and worried.

"Al-ex." I stutter.

"Come on." He says as he picks me up off the floor.

"Why are you here?" I ask.

"I was just walking my dog." He says as I look down and notice Luke's cute dog sitting down beside him.

"Shall I walk you home?" He asks.

"Sure if you don't mind." I answer.

"Of course not. Do you want to talk about what happened?" He asks.

"Not really. I made a mistake. I thought he liked me but I was just lead on and lied to. That's all." I tell him as we start to walk down the road away from the direction of the party and back to my house.

"He made the mistake if you ask me." He says.

"What do you mean?" I question.

"He screwed up." He says.

"Thanks Luke. I betrayed everyone tonight and I don't think anyone would want me now." I say as soon as we arrive at my house.

"It's okay." He assures me but I know it's not.

**

The next morning I wake up on the sofa. Flashbacks of last night came back into my head. I should have honestly had shouted at Alex so much more but I didn't want to waste my time on him considering he had no feelings towards me and to be frankly honestly I had none towards him. My mind was telling me I liked him but my heart was telling me something different. Every time I was with him I felt like I was betraying someone. I don't know who but the feeling was definitely there. I woke up with a slight headache and so I took some tablets. Thankfully my Mum wasn't in but now I was all alone and had nothing to do. I could call Michael but I'm not that good of an actor and he would certainly see through my lies. I head up to my bedroom and open up my laptop. Twitter comes up instantly and so I decided just to explore what was trending currently I came across one tweet which was a link to a YouTube video. As soon as I clicked on it I realised it was Calum, Ashton, Luke and Michael I pressed play and started watch the video. As I got half way through there was a knock on the door. I hurried down the stairs to answer it and looked through the spy hole to make sure it wasn't Michael and it wasn't. It was someone I didn't expect to see. It was Luke.