Afraid • l.h

Chapter 41 • "You need to go home."

Tilly's POV

He didn't even have to say a word before I started crying at the thought of what happened yesterday. I run past him and into my little cottage switching a set of fairy lights on and slumping down on the sofa. A few minutes later I hear a knock on the door.

"Tilly?" He says.

"Tilly, I'm sorry for whatever I said." The fact that he doesn't remember makes this worse.

"Please let me in." He says and for a moment I think about it.

It walk over to the door and open it just a crack so he is visible.

"You need to go home." I say to him sternly.

"Can you at least tell me what I said?"

"I can't believe you cannot remember."

"Please tell me." He begs.

"You really wanna know?" I question, tears still rolling down my cheeks.

"Yeah." He answers shyly.

"You told me you never loved me and that you was using me for whatever reason." The words sting like hell and before you know it I slammed the door in his face and broke down on the floor crying myself to sleep over a boy that never loved me.

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It was Thursday morning and I was awake early since the morning sun woke me up. I snuck back into my house and went upstairs to have a shower. Washing my hair makes my mind wonder to various things. I soon realise it's my first therapy today and I would be going straight from school. I jump out this shower, dry my hair and get ready within half an hour.

I'm feeling a little more confident and happier than the previous day's for whatever reason I don't know. I go with a simple white tee shirt and black skinny jeans. I curl my hair today as I haven't for a long while and apply minimal makeup. I slip on some shoes whilst grabbing everything I need and head out for the day.

I arrived at school about 40 minutes after leaving my house today as the bus was pretty quick. I text my friends to say I was going straight to art as I wasn't in the mood to see Luke if he was there. It wasn't a lie I did need to go to art and ask my teacher something so that's exactly what I was doing. I walked around the back entrance to avoid seeing any of them. As I walked past the music block I heard a faint voice inside, I stop in my tracks and listen for a while.

"Pick you up if you fall to pieces, let me be the one to save you."

I manage to only listen to that because I hear someone coming behind me and it may look weird if I'm standing outside listening to someone inside music. I continue my walk to art that had been interrupted by an anonymous voice. As I flick through the my art book the question sits on my mind about who that could have been.

The day goes fast and no signs of Luke were shown even thought I had Maths and English that day. I manage to catch a few breaks and so in that time I did my home work. Lunch was okay I guess, I spent it sitting under a tree listening to music.

I see jack a number of times throughout the day although I notice he isn't with Alex which for some reason I find strange.

When I arrive at the hospital I walk straight up to the desk to be checked in.

"Hello." The kind women says.

"Hi. I'm here for therapy." Although I don't need it. I don't speak the second part out loud but I certainly think it.

"Okay. What's your name?"

"Tilly." I reply.

"Tilly Wilson?" She asks.