Zalfie Oneshots

I Won't Be The Man

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Hey guys!
So I just wanted to state before you continue to read this oneshot that the storyline of this one is more mature and slightly more graphic than previous oneshots, and so if you aren't comfortable with that then I advise you not to read this update.
Thanks for reading, let me know in the comments whether or not you like this kind of storyline! Enjoy the update - Katie x

"Alf?" Zoe's quizzical, soft voice floated over to him from the spot next to him on his families sofa.

Alfie turned his head in Zoe's direction quickly before turning his eyes back to the film they'd put on the TV. Zoe and Alfie had been together for seven months now and had grown to feel completely at ease in one another's company. Their first time making love to one another only a few weeks ago had managed to break any ice that may have still been looming and the couple had recently become almost inseperable, so in love it was almost sickening.

Amanda and Nick were currently staying with friends, and Poppy was staying with her boyfriend Sean for a couple of nights so Zoe and Alfie had the house to themselves. Individually they had both not-so-secretly mentally planned they would be part taking in their newly found 'favourite activity' at least once whilst they were home alone, and as the evening was dawning, both were highly anticipating what was to come.

"Yeah Zo?" Alfie asked, smiling slightly at the sight of her tucked up on his sofa, her hair flowing down the side of her neck, and her eyes shining. She looked so at home and adorable.

Zoe felt nervous, not because of what she knew was to come, she was not nervous about that at all, in fact she could barely wait for it all to start as she stared at Alfie's messy hair and handsome face, but she was nervous about the question lingering in her mind, a question she was about to ask him.

She took a breath and turned her attention to her ringing hands in her lap, finding it was easier to look there than at her boyfriends face as she voiced her question.

"What's wrong?" Alfie asked his obviously troubled girlfriend, shifting so that he was sitting right in front of her on the sofa, his hand resting on her thigh.

"Alfie? Do you think that you're ever..." Zoe stopped and thought about what she was trying to say. She knew what she needed to know, and so she knew what needed to be asked, but asking the question to Alfie's face was so much harder than she thought it would be.

"Do I what?" Alfie was becoming more and more confused about his girlfriends behaviour. She usually had no trouble communicating anything to him, but she seemed quite hung up on the question she was trying to ask.

"Do you want to fuck me?"

There. She'd said it.
As shocked as Zoe was at her sudden blurt of a question she'd been mulling over for weeks, the look on her face could never match the utter look of shock and horror that took over Alfie's face the second that phrase left her lips. He went pale, his whole body froze, went rigid as a wooden board. For a second, everything around him stopped, and then he looked into the tearing blue eyes of the girl who had his whole heart and the ache in his chest brought him right back to reality.

Zoe couldn't help but let the tears build up and cloud her vision. She knew that Alfie loved her, and in the seven months they had been together he had treated her like his princess every single day, but after the heartache and catastrophes of previous relationships that had left her both a little bit emotionally and mentally bruised, she couldn't help but wonder if that was what Alfie wanted. If that was what he'd been waiting for.

Alfie pulled Zoe's petite body into his lap and cuddled her into him, lovingly kissing her forehead from time to time while he gently rubbed her arm up and down. They were only small, simple gestures, but they made Zoe's heart swell with love for her baby faced boyfriend and her worries seemed to begin to retract.

Once Zoe had sat up properly and Alfie had regained his composure, he cupped her jaw in the palm of his hand and kissed her lips so tenderly and with so much love tears almost sprung to Zoe's eyes once again.

"I want to answer you in the most honest way I possibly can okay?" Alfie said softly, still holding her face with one hand and intertwining their fingers with the other. Zoe took in a deep, sharp breath of air and nodded her head silently, waiting for his response.

"I never, not once more in however long we remain in love, not even when we're old and grey, want to hear you use that phrase again in relation to you and I and the way we connect.
I want to make love to you, I want to make you feel good about yourself and I want to connect myself with you in the most loving, amazing, special way possible.
I love you Zoe, more than you can even imagine, but I do not love you like that. I do not believe in using you or your body, nor do I ever want to hurt you or treat you with any sort of disrespect.
If that's what you want, if that's the kind of relationship you are looking for then I'm sorry, but I won't be the man to treat you that way. I am not, cannot, and nor will I ever be the man.
I am a man who loves everything about you, from the flyaway hairs at the top of you head to the very tip of your little toe, and I want to show you that in all kinds of ways. Zo, you allowing me to make love to you and show you my love in such a beautiful way is a gift I will treasure until the day I die.
Never will I want that Zoe. I love you."

Alfie felt himself relax entirely after getting those thoughts off of his chest and seeing Zoe appreciate and understand what he was saying.

"I know you do and I feel so incredibly lucky to know you feel the way yoghhyu do about me. it's more than I could ever ask for. I'm relieved to have out that in the open and move past it now with a better and equal understanding" Zoe breathed, hugging Alfie tight to her in relief and complete adoration, "and I love you more." She kissed him to solidify their discussion.

"Hmm, I'm pretty sure you don't." Alfie smirked as he brought Zoe's body round a little bit to straddle him and she wrapped her arms around his neck.

Their lips connected in a love filled, passionate kiss. Hands wondered, tongues battled, and breaths became laboured.

"I love you so much" Alfie managed to speak between kisses, his voice husky and his nose nuzzling Zoe's neck.

"Mmmm" Zoe hummed in his ear quietly, bringing her lips closer to his ear to whisper "show me."

That was all it took, Alfie picked Zoe up and her body clung to his. They stumbled up the stairs to his bedroom where laughter and happiness could be heard as love was made in the most beautiful way.

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Sooo? What do you think? I'm not really sure if I like it or not, leave a comment with you opinion? Thanks so much for reading - Katie x