The Billionaires Big PHAT Secret

Chapter 11

I heard my phone ringing from beside me on the bed. When I took it up the phone it was Liz calling because the caller ID read 'drama queen.' I saved it that was seven months after we met. That was how long It took me to trust her enough to at least give her my number.

"Are you still alive?" I heard her say from the other end of the phone.

"Why wouldn't I be. Are you plotting kill me or something?" I ask her

"No stupid. I was talking about Joshua O'Connor. The sexies man alive. Has is sexy body has you begging for a piece of the pie yet"

"One thing your right about is that he is sexy, otherwise I'm not begging for a slice of any pie"

I heard her hissing "girl please you know you want some a that. What girl in her right stabled mind can refuse that. If I wasn't with Jason I would be all over that"

" well I am refusing . All those other female can have him" I nonchalantly pointed out to her.

"Oh wait I forgot your not in your right mind, your mentally challenged that's what you are."

Is she serious? "Liz I am not crazy. I am just simply refusing to get caught by his playboy act."

" Are you sure your human? I mean you have been living under the same roof breathing the same air. for God's sake eating and drinking from the same bloody hell plates and cups with one of the world's most eligible bachelor and your telling me that you never once wanted to just jump him?" Her drama mode kicking in.

"No Liz I don't. By the way I think his air is a little too expensive for me to afford to be breathing it" I chuckled a little

"Sam I suggest you should seek professional help before you condition gets worse"

"I don't have a condition"

"If your living under the same roof as a guy like that and you never once felt anything. Your sick. Maybe your gay" she said

"Liz I am not gay.....but something did happen"

"What...what? come on Sam the suspense is killing me" I heard her yelling. Sge is the one that needs to get a check up not me.

" maybe if you stop acting so dramatic and shut up and let me talk" I said to her.

"Ok. I'll shut up"

" ok. Well today while I was in his office cleaning the book shelves I stopped at a book that I have always wanted. He must have noticed it and came over and picked it up and was giving it to me but at first I refused but he insisted it was no big deal that's when I accepted it but it didn't end there I realized how close we were. Liz his eyes are so beautiful. When he was starting at me I felt as if he could see deep down into my soul. Seeing everything that I am trying to hide from the world...."

"Awww" I heard Liz on the other end

"That's when I felt his hand on my cheek. His touch felt so welcoming, I could feel the longing in his touch. I felt accepted, I didn't feel like a reject and I lean into his touch. I wanted to feel more, my eyes closed and at that split moment I felt like everything melted away. All the stress, loneliness, anger, hatred, reject was all gone. My eyes came open again and he was leaning in but he paused as if thinking about what he was doing. Thats when reality kicked in, I knew there and then that he was about to make a mistake, that he didn't want me. I pulled away."

"Dangit sam, what is wrong with you. You ruined a perfect moment with your selfish attitude. Always going on about nobody wants you. I seriously can't deal with your negativity, whenever a good guy comes around you shut down your whole emotions. You become some rude, heartless bicth......"

"You don't know what your talking about" I cut her off

"Samantha be quite and let me finish. You cant let what Tony did to you so long ago have you bound for the the rest of your life. Scaring any good guy that happens to drift your direction. You need to stop it, your mom want you to be happy, your step dad wants you to be happy. Your entire family wants you to be happy. Sam I am your friend and I want you. That is if you even consider me as your friend." Your a wonderfull human being and you deserve to be happy.

"Liz I'm sorry...."

She continued. "You have always kept me at a distance. Never letting me in, always hiding stuff from as if you dont trust me. Well guess what not every one'sthe same. I trust you Sam, your my best friend but hardly even consider me as your friend."

I don't see why she is so upsetand. "Liz I'm. ....."

"You know what Samantha could save it" I hear her crying on the other end." You need to work on your attitude towards others and stop feeling sorry for yourself cause it won't help." I heard a male voice calling her "Jason needs me I have to go"

"Liz wait I...." with that the line went dead. Why is so upset. It's not like she truly understand what I am going through. I do consider her a friend. don't I?"

I rolled over my side curled up. Why does it feels like the whole world is against me. The walls feel as if there caving in on me. Can't I ever catch a break? I feel bad making her cry. Tears treating to over follow but I did my best yo hold it back , I refuse to cry. I haven't since then and I'm not about to start now.

I got up from the bed and went over to my closet to get clothes to go have a bath hoping that it would help get rid of these feelings that I have. It was a suitable sized walk in closet, I had little close so it made it seemed empty. I picked out a shorts and a tank top and throw them on the bed.

I spent like an hour in the tube just trying to clear my thoughts and debating if I should call Liz and apologies or I should let her cool off first. When I put on my clothes I comb my hair the tank top continued to ride up. Whenever I pull it down it came back up again I was about to start a war when I heard a Knock at the door.

I wonder who could it be, then it hit me there are only two people here apart from me. I know it's not jerk face, it must be Bev coming to find out if I'm ok and why I didn't come to dinner. To my surprise it was the other way around. When I opened the door he was leaning on the door post, hand in pokets. His head held down staring at the floor.

"Are you ok? You didn't come to dinner tonight " He asked his head still down

"Yes I am fine"

"I'm sorry about what happened today. I was out of line" I saw his head slowly traveling up my body, then it stopped at me belly button. Thats when I remembered the tank top was half way up. I quickly pulled I down and his head snapped to the side looking away from me. Is this his way of telling my that he's sorry? He's just being an even bigger pervert now.

"It's ok I know you didnt mean it" there was no way he could have meant it. Im not his type.

He stood there looking conflicted with himself trying tell to figure out wether or not he should tell me something then he stood up straight. " ok then. Have a good nigh"

"You too" I said then he walked off. What was that all about? I asked myself the question closing the door, then the bloody hell thing came up again. "What the hell! Would you like me to cut you?" I started threating the damn thing. I must have grown out of the thing because it would never stay in place.