The Billionaires Big PHAT Secret

Chapter Forty-one

Just the thought of just letting go and just giving up sounded good and much more simpler than trying to work things out. But after deep thoughts and consideration, talking to myself, hating myself, forgiving and hating again, I came to the realization that this was just an obstacle, a milestone in my. One in which I had to go through in order to get to the next step in my life. We all do as humans, its apart of our nature, our being. What we thrive off of just to move forward.

Sure they made there mistakes but damn no one is perfect only the creator himself. It may on be a word that falls from my tongue as do the rain from the sky but do the both of them. If anyone was to have a life where its all rainbows and sunshine, something would be wrong. Even life itself takes a wrong turn, its up to us to navigate it back on the right track. That is what I was trying to do and little by little its getting there. Even if I had to cry every night it would be worth it.

I was getting there with the man before, step by step, inch by inch. I wonder if.......

Before I could finish that thought the sothing sound of his voice broke through my thoughts.

"You know if you keep looking st my like that you might burn holes through me and I wont be able to finish my work"

For the pass ten minutes i have been burning holes through him. I came in here with the inetion to  get some alone time with the book but when I saw Joshua in here I offered to leave but he insist that I should stay. I know that tthere are people out there who would never forgive one so easily but I needed this. I needed him, to feel his energy, his begin.

"what are you ganna do, sue me?he couch"

"I might just" he said bearing a smirk on his face.

"Too bad I have nothing for you to gain" well it was partly true, I did have about fifty dollars in my piggy bank next to my bed and a pack of gum that I was saving, why? I don't know.

"Well thats not entirly true," the look on his face hintted me on just what he was reffering to. 

The look on his face hintted me on just what he was reffering to. "what do you mean?"

"Well if you had no money to offer you could always pay me in other ways" he said those words with a raised eyebrow and a mysterious smile.

He stopped in front of the couch that I was sitting, towering iver me in all his glory with his hands in his pocsmile.  He dent over so our faces were at the same level.

Is closeness was something I was yet to get use to. "Yea? Like what?"

His smirk only turned into a half smile with even answering my previous question he closed the space between us. The moment his lips came in contact with mines chills took over my entire body.

Lately his kiss has become more captivating, more valuable. Each time he would kiss me it felt like the first, and I don't know why. I guess turns you into a fool, uh?"

The kiss held Evey emotions that he was feeling. Lust, care, admiration, love. I felt the love that he felt, even though he never said it I could feel it. How? I don't have one clue how.

He brok the but his lips lingered a little while longer. We just stayed there like that in silence, soaking in each others presence.

"Get the picture?" The said braking the silence.

Even though it was not long but the absence of his lips against my own made it feel lonely. "Nah, could you show me again" the smile on my face was evidence in how childish I could be at times.

I could tell that he didn't mind the request at all for he only nodded his head. Taking my face in his hand he connected our lips once again. The little child in me was smiling so have it hurt but pain is part of the cycle of life a cycle that keeps going and going it all depends on the choices you make. Joshua was a choice that I made out of love which I did not that I had until the nigh that I stayed up crying and confused.