Dear Diary (5sos au)

Dear Diary, I'm Awful

Dear Diary,

I still cant believe I did that to Ashton yesterday. I cant believe I actually tried to make him jealous! What was I even trying to make him jealous for? He wasnt doing anything wrong.

Or maybe I just like Luke.

-Claire X

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{Claires POV- Past}

I snicker at how selfish that sounds. I didnt deserve a boy friend...

I didnt deserve Ashton.

I layed down on my bed, starring at the stained white ceiling. I thought about what I should do. I shouldnt be in a relationship with Ashton if all im going to do is get jealous every time he even talks to another girl.

But something inside my gut tells me it wasnt jealousy. Something tells me I wanted to tell Luke he looked good. I wanted to grab his face and stare into his beautiful blue eyes.

I jump as my phone suddenly rings. I quickly reciver and look at the screen.

Ashton.

"Hey." I answer nonchalantly, but im sure hes calling to break up with me.

"Hey!" He sounds cheerful. Did he not remember yesterday? Maybe he didnt care.

"Whats up?"

"Can you come over? Allison wants to see you and.... I wanted to talk." Ah, there it is.

"Uh, sure. I will be there in twenty minutes." I hang up and pull a hoodie over my head. The fall weather was finally starting to appear.

I slip on my vans and run downstairs. Before I run out the door, something catches my eye.

It was a note on the counter.

No one has been in the house except me...

I hesitantly pick it up, and unfold the slightly ripped sheet.

Watch Out.

I widen my eyes and run out the door. I felt like I was in one of those thriller movies. This was the scene right before the victim dies.

I ran all the way to Allisons house, and ran through the door crying.

"Claire? Whats wrong?" Allison asks, which grabs the boys attention. They all run towards us, and watch as I hand Allison the note.

"Watch out? Where did you get this?" She asks.

"Someone must have broken into my house, it was on the counter." I reply, sucking in a deep breath.

"That hand writing is farmiliar." Calum says, taking the note. "Kelsey wrote this."

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{Emmas POV- Present}

I watch as mom and aunt Allison sit in two chairs side by side. They were both crying and comforting eachother.

They wouldnt tell me what was going on, and it was killing me. I wanted to know.

"Emma?" Josh asks, crawling onto my lap.

"Yes, Josh?"

"Is my daddy okay?" He asks in a cute little innocent voice.

"I dont know, Joshie." What was I supposed to say?

We all sat quietly until Melanie came running in with Maria.

"Where are they? Are they okay- what happened?" She sees mom and aunt Allison crying, so she starts crying too.

Mom looks up, wiping her eyes. "Its bad."

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Short chapter but idrc 😂😂

~Claire