Dear Diary (5sos au)

Dear Diary, Im Choosing

Dear Diary,

I know what I want now.

I know what I need.

To be fair, i'm going to have to tell them how I feel. Maybe they will be mad at me, and maybe they will understand. I'm just hoping for the best.

-Claire X

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{Claires POV- Present}

I was currently sitting in a plane to go back home. I was thinking maybe I could stay at Allison and no one would know...

I miss everyone, and thats the only place I can call home.

'WE ARE NOW LANDING, PLEASE EXIT IN AN ORDERLY FASHION'

Everyone crowds off the plane, most people are excited, seeming to be on vacation. Maybe even some people were just getting home, like me.

I grab my purse and slowly walk down the steps and into the airport.

I call a cab and quickly get to Allisons house. I didnt exactly tell them I was coming, surprises are good right?

I decided to just walk in, like Allison told me to always do. I take a deep breath, entering the living room.

My heart drops at the sight.

Luke was on top of some girl, grabbing her waist in a heated make out session.

"Fuckboy!" I mutter, causomg them to jerk off the couch. Luke looks up at me, and his jaw drops.

"Claire? W-what are you doing here?" Luke asks, the girl just scoffs and looks away.

"I came to surprise you. Guess that was a mistake. I should have known you were trying to use me!" Tears form in my eyes as I start to walk away.

But he pulls my arm back.

"No, baby, its not like that!" The way he called me baby had my chest tightening.

"Luke, just leave me alone. Consider us not on speaking terms." I was glad I had enough strenghth to say that to him.

"Luke! We're home!" I hear Ashton call. I run to the foyer, atleast I can see someone I care about.

Allison, Ashton, Michael and Calum all stood their in shock.

"Claire!" Ashton runs up to me, hugging me tightly. He sees the tears in my eyes and frowns. "Whats wrong?"

"Nothing really... Just Luek was kissing that girl.." He raises an eyebrow in confusion.

"So?" Oh fuck. I forgot he didnt know.

I kind of forgot he was my boyfriend that im supposedly loyal to. He deserves so much better.

"Oh um..." He backs away, anger fills his eyes.

"I knew something happened in Paris!" He yells, making me flinch. I didnt know Ashton could even get angry.

Luke runs out, holding Ashton back.

"Ash, its my fault! I went there and kissed her! She wanted me to leave so I did! Dont get mad at her!" He yells.

I see Allison and Calum whispering back and forth. Michael starred at Ashton, clearly as confused as me.

"She could have told me!" He yells, looking over at me. His eyes werent filled with anger anymore. They were filled with hurt.

I caused that hurt.

"Claire, why did you come back? Not that I dont want you here.. I just-" Allisom stops as I opem my mouth to speak.

"I came to break up with Ashton." I look over into Ashtons hazel eyes, even more hurt. My heart practically shattered.

"For Luke?" She asks, but I shake my head.

"No! I dont deserve him.. I dont deserve anyone. Not even this fuckboy." I point to Luke who frowns.

"Okay, I can explain-"

"No need." I interrupt him.

I look aroumd the room, all the frowns and disappointed looks. This wasnt home anymore.

"I guess I cant call this home,"

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{Emmas POV- Present}

Aunt Allison and me slowly walked into Uncle Calums room. We sat in the chairs beside his bed.

The doctors sent us in to find out what else he remembers, and why he specifically remembers us.

"Hey, Cal." Aunt Allison says with a smile. Uncle Calum looks up at us and gives us a weak grin.

"Hey guys... I have a question." He says and we nod.

"Okay..."

"Hows Ashton?" We both look at him with widened eyes.

"You remember them?!" I yell with a smile.

"Them?" He asks, and I frown again. "The only things I have remembered are you two, Ashton Irwin, and crowds. Big crowds in stadiums... Five Seconds of Summer? Whats that?" We smile down at him.

"Uncle Cal, your famous! Thats the band your in." I say and he smiles.

Aunt Allison continues, "You play the bass, Luke is the lead singer, Ashton plays drums and-"

"Michael." He says and we grin again.

"If you keep up at this pace you'll remember everything next week."

"Maybe..." He says. He seems to be in deep thought. Then his eyes light up, "I remember.. A girl with black hair.. Shes pretty, shes always been there for me.. Mali-Koa, my sister?" We nod.

"Yeah, your sister."

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Smut maybe in a couple chapters 😏

Sounds Good Feels Good in one hour omggg 😭🎉

~Claire