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Chapter 32

*3rd person's P.O.V*

Nang lumapit si Mylene sa mga Fragatta, agad naisip ni Yael na mag-abroad para mailayo si Miles sa kay Hoven.

Naisip nya kasing mas makakalimutan ni Miles si Hoven kapag napaglayo nya ang mga ito sa isa't-isa. Si Miles man ang lumapit sa pamilya nya, alam nyang lumalabas pa rin na inagaw nya lang si Miles.

Gusto nyang makalimutan ni Miles ang lahat ng meron sila ni Hoven.

Right from the start, he knows that the feeling he wants Miles to forget was too deep but he didn't budge. He keep on trying.

Nang mag-abroad sila, ay sa iisang bahay at kwarto na lang sila nagsasama.

Naisip nya kasing mas mapapalapit ang loob ni Miles kapag ganito ang set-up nila. Pero dun sya nagkamali.

*Yael's P.O.V*

Akala ko kapag naagaw ko na sya, magiging kontento na ko at higit sa lahat magiging masaya na ko.

Hindi pala.

The moment I stole her from him.. I didn't know that I was killing her, emotionally.

She's a living dead. No shine in her eyes, no genuine smile in her lips and no heart to love me back.

It was useless to have her like this, it was breaking me.

She cries silently to her sleep then, one day the crying became screaming.

Nung unang beses ko syang marinig na sumigaw sa gabi, agad akong nagising at pilit syang gisingin.

She was crying and screaming, I didn't know what to do, so I slap her so hard.

Nagising sya na parang takot na takot

"Miles, ako 'to si Yael. Wag kang matakot" nang makilala nya ako ay agad nya akong niyakap na mahigpit na akala mo ay may mga taong kukuha sa kanya palayo sa'kin.

She was trembling so hard. Umaga na ng mapanatag sya at tuluyang makabalik sa pagtulog.

Simula nung gabing yun, wala ng gabing payapa ang pagtulog nya. Agad akong naalarma sa kalusugan nya kaya nagdesisyon akong ipatingin sya sa isang espsyalista.

"How was my wife Doc?"

"Did someone take advantage of her? or.. rather rape her?"

"What?!"

"She's has a disorder called Post-traumatic stress disorder."

"What the hell is that?"

"It is a psychological reaction occurring after experiencing ahighly stressing event as wartime combat, physical violence, or a natural disaster that is usually characterized bydepression, anxiety, flashbacks, recurrent nightmares, and avoidance of reminders of the event"

"What are you trying to tell me?"

The doctor remove his glasses and look intently to me "From what I'm assuming, she's not a soldier. Right?"

"yes."

"Well, your wife suffered a physical violence. Someone, tried to rape her and now the memories of it was haunting her.

"It's imposible! I was always by her side!"

"Maybe the incident was long time ago, before she met you"

Bigla akong nanghina sa mga narinig ko, hindi ko akalaing may ganitong nangyari sa kanya.

Kulang na lang sabihin ng doktor na baliw na ang babaeng pinakamamahal ko.

Napahilamos ako ng mukha "Doc, what am I going to do?"

"We can schedule her to an appointment with a psychiatrist. She needs to talk to some Professionals. Maybe it will help her."

Sinunod ko ang mga payo ng Doktor, pina-schedule ko sya ng mga sessions ng therapy sa isang recommended na psychiatrist.

Mahirap mabuhay sa ibang bansa kayod kalabaw ka dapat. Binibigyan pa din naman ako ng parents ko ng pera pero ayoko masyadong umasa sa kanila lalo na at nagsasama na kami ni Miles.

Nung una, pumapayag syang kausapin ang psychiatrist pero nung tumagal umayaw na sya. Mahal daw kasi.

Bumibili na lang kami ng sedatives at sleeping pills para makatulog sya at may pampakalma sya tuwing magwawala sya.

Ginusto ko syang makasama habang buhay pero hindi ganito.