LOVING THIS MUCH!

Chapter 15 Spoiled by his love

*Mylene*

Sobrang okay na ko sa set-up ng buhay ko ngayon. Hoven is completing me so much. I have nothing to asked for. It's like Hoven's giving the whole world for me.

I couldn't asked for more.

But still, I have those sleepless night because that "Incident" still haunts me and it mostly happen when I'm sleeping alone. I will be suddenly awake by a nightmare replaying that incident to my mind.

Kapag nagigising na ko, Hindi ko mapigilang umiyak at akapin ang sarili ko. Hindi ko pwedeng sabihin kay Papa ang nangyari dahil siguradong makakapatay sya. Kinumbinsi ko din si Hoven na wag na magsumbong dahil kapag kumalat ang isyu pati ang natitirang kahihiyan na meron ako, Mawawala.

Ang pinakamasakit, Hindi ko rin makwento kay Lia ang nangyari dahil sigurado ako, Pandidirihan nya ko. I used to tell her everything. EVERY SINGLE THING  but now I can't.

I can't even mutter a word in them on how I feel, How heavy my burdens are, how difficult it was to face this struggle.

Good thing I've got Hoven. In a single warm and nice hug, He could make those memories go and fades away. He is the best medicine that money can't buy. 

He spoiled me so much into his love. He's always making something to make me feel awesomely good. Like when my nightmare haunts me, He will sing for me and gently stroke his hand to my hair to make me calm. When I'm spacing out and nighmare just flashed into my mind, He will hug me from the back and kiss the top of my head saying 'It's okay. I'm here. You don't have to be scared'

Hindi ko na alam ang gagawin kapag nawala si Hoven sa'kin. I would rather die than to face this cruel world alone.

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Nag-decide akong maging normal ulit ang routine ng buhay ko. Pero ..

I saw Yael. A different Yael. He lost weight and he looks wasted. He was nobody with. Nakakapagtaka talaga, dahil lagi syang napapalibutan ng kaibigan, kabarkada o ng mga kaklase nya. Kung hindi naman kasama nya si Abby.

Pero ngayon, nasa may hagdan ito at nag-iisa.

Anger rush into my blood veins whenever I see him. Hindi ko sya gustong sisihin sa nangyari sa'kin pero sa twing makikita ko sya, Naalala ko ang mga ginawa sa'kin ng mga demonyong yun.

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Pinigilan ko ang sarili ko na lapitan sya kahit gustong-gusto kong iparamdam sa kanya yung galit ko. Matagal kong napanatili ang pasensya ko pero...

May hangganan ang pasensya ko at hindi ko napigilan ang sarili ko

 "I wonder why the famous EMMANUEL IAN FRAGATTA look so miserable and wasted now?"I asked in a very sarcastic way

 "Miles?" he gives me his most loveliest smile that I've fall for but still there is sadness in his eyes

 "So, have you gone too tired to make your face so charming? No girl would prefer a sorry-type guy Yael. You know that. No, You mastered the attitudes to become a every girl's dream"

 

Tumayo sya at lumapit sa'kin. "Are you still mad at me?"