Maybe this is not the best idea. . .I looked at the mirror and my body is shaking in nervous. My eyes were bloodshot and and wrists won't stop bleeding.
I can't be like this. . .after finding out that I'm doing self harm they'll sent me to asylum and never let me go.
I hate that to happen but how can I stop myself from doing this? Who would listen to me?
I went to my bed forgetting the all the worries and held my teddy bear close to me. "Hey. . ." a husky voice echoed in my ear "Luke. . .! I didn't know you're here" I said.
"I'm sorry if I scared you. . .just want to cuddle you" he says as he snuggles his head in the crook of my neck giving me goosebumps.
"You know it's awkward. . .me and you cuddling here in my bed" I said "I think it is not. . .it's better you know" he says and I slightly shift uncomfortably.
"Are you okay? I think there is something wrong" he whispered as he grabbed my wrist and saw the new cuts I have.
"Why can't you stop? It's killing me you know. . ." he added and I shut my mouth. "Please tell me how to stop this thing and I'll help you" he added.
"My life is just a weather. . .whenever I'm sad. . .or depressed I would cry just like the rain. And whenever I'm happy I would light up the world just like the sun. . ." I said in irony "You have to stop this! It is killing me" he said and I felt the world has stopped just for us.
"I can't. . .but I'll try. . ." I said nuzzling my head on his shoulder and wrapped my arms around him "Do you know why I like you?" he asked.
"What. . .?" I said closing my eyes "I love being who you are" he says placing a kiss on my forehead giving me shivers down my spine.
"You know this is giving me shivers. . ." I said "I know. . .and this is why I'm being like this" he says. We stayed there for hours and silence took over me.
He fell asleep and I haven't took a nap, I stared at the ceiling thinking about myself and the band. I slowly got out of the bed and went to Ashton.
Ashton's POV
I got suprised when Michael visit today, "What brings you here?" I asked "Nothing much. . .I'm just bothered that's all. . ." he replied looking down. What the hell is he talking about?
"What the hell is going on?" I asked getting confused to his actions "I can't feel this anymore. . .I'm being guarded up. . .the feeling of being locked up by your own words and thoughts. I'm trapped inside it and I can't get out" he explained.
"You mean you're too scare to love Luke?" I asked giving a conclusion to his problem.
"Yeah. . .sort of. . .I don't know! I'm being pressure between love and hate" he added and I frowned. How could he think of this?
He is the most perfect person for him and yet he is too scared to admit? Maybe he is right. . .he is trapped by his words and thoughts.
"What should I do? I can't be like this forever. . ." he mumbled
"Try to get out of your shelf. . .be who you are" I said
"What if don't work out? What if it fails?"
"It will never be. . .I promise. . ." I assured him and he sighed "Better be good at this. . .I'm expecting to be a good relationship" I said and we both chuckled.
Michael's POV
When I came home, I went to his room and he was playing my Xbox. I cleared my throat so he get rid of my Xbox but he didn't, "You know there is a sign that says it is the property of Michael" I said in a serious tone.
"Oh hey. . .I didn't you would come home early. . .I'm not destroying it" he says "You are right now" I said crossing my arms over my chest.
"Okay fine. . .I'm not gonna touch your boyfriend anymore" he says emphasizing the word boyfriend' and I rolled my eyes.
"That's my baby and you're killing it" I said "Yeah. . .but remember. . ." he says coming closer to me before saying. . .
"You'll be mine. . ."
Those words gave me shivers down my spine, I gulped in nervous and looked at his blue eyes. "Just remember that okay? Because I'm yours and you're mine" he added and I shook my head "It's impossible" I said with a small smirk on my face.
"Are you challenging me. . .?" he asked furrowing his eyebrows "What if I said yes?" I joked and all of a sudden he pushed me against the wall giving me a yelp in pain from my back.
"Who do you think you are?" he said with a smirk on his face "I'm just kidding. . .I didn't know you would take it seriouly" I said closing my eyes and ready for the fist colliding in my face.
"I'm sorry. . ."
Those words opened my eyes and saw him with tears on his eyes. I squeezed my grip on his shirt and rub my nose agaisnst him, "Just promise me you're mine?" he says.
"I was destined to be yours. . .a long time ago" I said as I giggled and he chuckled "Just promise me okay?" he says and I nod my head nuzzling my head in the crook of his neck. I could feel his hot breathe on my neck, I closed my eyes and stayed there like the world has stopped for us.
There is a hot steam between us that trapped both of us, sweats were forming on his forehead. I gulped before saying
"I love you. . ."
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I Love You But I Hate You (A Muke FanFiction story) ✔
FanfictionLuke is just a good guy that has feelings for Michael for a long time while Michael hates Luke so much. On the other side Michael has also feelings for Luke but he always hate Luke he doesn't know why he hates Luke. He is scared that he might reject...