May 31
Dear Diary,
2:15am
Guess who I get to share a room with…. Zayn Freaking Malik! I guess Paul had made the room assignments and he figured that I wouldn’t mind sharing a room considering he acts like a girl and I am a girl. Louis and Harry are sharing a room because they always end up in the same room no matter what, Niall has his own room because he too much of a bother for everyone with his constant midnight snacks and snoring. Liam shares a room with Paul because both of them go to bed really early and so they don’t really bother anyone. I just cannot believe that I have to share a room with him for the entire time we are in America which is a pretty long time. GRRRRR!!!! I have to go Mr. Buttface wants in the bathroom and I need to go to bed.
10:30 am
So I got like NO sleep last night. Thank god there were two rooms in the suite thingy we got but I could still hear everything he did in his room. I guess he couldn’t sleep so he was watching TV and an annoyingly loud volume. It was loud enough that I could hear it but quiet enough that I couldn’t understand what they were saying. Thank god they have a bunch of interviews today so I can sleep in the van! Louis told me he will talk to Paul about me switching roommates for the next hotel. I really hope Paul won’t be a meany. Wow I am starting to sound like a little kid… I better go and try having an intellectual conversation with Liam…. Who am I kidding I am going to end up goofing around with Louis and harry or falling asleep on Niall’s shoulder. I feel like I should hang out with Liam more.
7:30 pm
17 interviews in the past 8 hours! It was probably the most boring thing I have ever experienced! Since there was no time to have the boys hair and wardrobe don’t for each show they couldn’t mess up their outfits so we couldn’t goof around. I wasn’t allowed to stay in the van because of the fans and the dressing room and their entire team chilling in it so I never got to sleep. Well actually between every interview I sat next to Liam with the hopes of getting to know him but every single time I ended up falling asleep on his shoulder. I think it’s starting to worry the boys because they keep asking me questions about how I feel and things like that. It’s a bit weird but I am not gonna say anything cause they are probably just worried.
Paul won’t let me switch sleeping arrangements! Grrr! I guess something else happened with Zayn because he is even more of a pissy mood now. I went out to go to the bathroom a few minutes ago and I guess he fell asleep in there because the light is on and I remember hearing him go in like 45 minutes ago and the door is locked. I am gonna go to see if one of the boys will let me use their bathroom.
11:30 pm
Let’s have a recap of last 4 hours: I walked out of the room in search of a bathroom, Zayn locked me out of the room and called me a whore, Niall found me crying and offered me his room, he saw my cutting scars and I had to explain what exactly happened after Louis left that made me so mad at him. You know what I am not going to be able to sleep so I will just tell you a story Diary about the worst 4 hours of my life.
Before I could even make it out the door it slams behind me.”Thank God” Zayn says from the other side. “I never thought you would come out to pee. I have been waiting for like an hour.”
“Really Zayn you spent an hour waiting for me to have to go to the bathroom? Since your out can you let me back in so I can use the bathroom before going to bed,”
“Your funny” he laughs evilly. “I knew you would forget your key, I am not letting you back in. you can go sleep in a park bench somewhere you little whore.”
His word hurt like nails. Instantly I turn around and walk away from the door because the last thing I wanted was for him to hear me crying. I just sat on the floor crying for a good five minutes before a pair of strong arms wrap around me and carry me away. I didn’t even care who it was so I didn’t bother opening my eyes.
“Stacy… is everything okay?” a strong Irish accent asks me. I slowly shook my head.
“Zayn locked me out of our room and then he called me a whore.” I whisper wiping the tears away quickly. “I’m fine just needed a good cry. Niall can I ask you a just favor? Can I use your bathroom? And sleep on your couch?” I asked willing my voice not to crack.
“You know where the bathroom is. But no you can’t sleep on my couch.”He
Pauses and my face drops. “But you can sleep on the bed. I’ll take the couch.”
“Oooh no Niall I am not going to take your bed away from you. It’s your hotel room I will be fine on the couch.”
“How about we just share my bed? Do you need some pajamas?” he asks with a straight face kinda like he doesn’t really want me there.
“Yea. Actually why don’t I just go to Harry and Louis room I don’t wanna bother you… I’ll just go.” I mumble walking over to the door. He catches my arm just as I reach for the door.
“Do you really think that’s the best idea. If either of them find out that Zayn kicked you out they will try killing him. Go to the bathroom and I’ll leave a pair of sweats on my bed for you to wear.” He says pushing me towards the bathroom. I had totally forgotten that I had to go.
After finishing in the bathroom I slowly walk into his room noticing the green sweats on the bed. Since I can hear him whistling in the living room I quickly pull my jeans off. Just as I am about to pull the pants up Niall walks in and his eyes immediately go to my legs. Before I can even pull the pants up I hear him gasp.
“What are those scars from?” he asks quietly.
“Nothing” my voice cracks. I quickly walk past him and turn the TV in attempts to not only distract myself but him.
“Stacy… what happened to your hips?” he whispers sitting next to me. I open my mouth to say nothing but it’s like he let the flood gates loose. I instantly start crying and telling him everything. About the bullying I suffered after Louis left for the x-factor, not only from my peers but also my parents.
“Wanna know the real reason that I was so upset with Louis? It’s is because he had protected me so much that after he left I was all alone. When he was gone I had no one to be there for me. Everyone that I thought were my friends turned their back on me and started talking bad about me. I had NO ONE!” I scream getting madder by the minute. I thought that I had forgiven him but I guess I just masked my anger. After screaming at Niall I could see the sadness and sympathy in his eyes. I am sick and tired of people looking at me like that so I just walked out. I walked out of the room then ran down the stairs and out the back door.
Right now I am sitting on the park bench a block away from the hotel. Niall and Louis have been spamming my phone with texts and calls for the past hour. There is no way I am going back to that hotel. Part of me feels really bad for running out on Niall. He had nothing to do with anything but I am way too embarrassed to go back in there. I don’t think I will be getting very much sleep tonight… Great.
Hope you’re doing better than me
Stacy
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Dear Diary, (One Direction fanfic)
FanfictionStacy is Louis little sister but only by a couple years. Before he was Louis Tomplinson 1/5 of One Direction he was Lou Stacy's best and only friend. Now Stacy is being forced to spend the summer with him and the band and write in her diary to get a...
