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Please don't go.. please..

*Anna's POV*

I bit my lip and held back the tears, "I didn't tell you about the baby because I didn't really know until just about a month ago.. and I didn't tell you I had cancer, because I didn't wanna loose you..." She looked at me "Anna, you aren't gonna loose me.." i looked at her and let the tears fall. "Adryan, you know damn well where i'm coming from, I didn't wanna tell you because I didn't want you counting down the days that you would have with me. I didn't want you to worry, and i understand if this is to much for you to handle, I didn't really think it mattered. The odds of me loosing the baby are high and the chances of me dying is in between. But whatever the out come. We do not tell rain or Jackson. They don't deserve to know." She looked at me heart broken and said "Do you really wanna keep it from rain? You know how that feels because your dad kept it from you. How do you think she'd feel? She's gonna have
To see you Suffer, she's gonna have to see you
Get weak. Jackson considers you as his other mom, because you Have always been there for him, you
Will always be his mom Anna, and you shouldn't keep it from them. But I will because there your wish, but please do Know that if this cancer kicks your ass. I'm not lying to them"
I walked away, did I ever say that she had to lie to them? Do I say that she had to sugar coat it? No, I didn't. So, why is she is putting words in my mouth, why is she making me feel bad. Why is it my fault that
I don't wanna hurt my kids.

*ADDIE'S POV*
She fucking walked away from me. I'm not trying to make her feel bad. Maybe I took it to far. I don't know. But I better go find her...

I got up and waddled into the bedroom and there she was lying on the bed, asleep. I made my way to her and covered her, and kissed her forehead. And it's times like these when I wish we didn't fight. Because I know
Hate not knowing what she's thinking. I know pissed her off, I wasn't trying to, it just.. kinda slipped out.. I'll fix it when she wakes up.

On a different note, Why does it hurt so much? Why couldn't she tell me that she had cancer, or that she was pregnant, I wouldn't have said anything. I would've been happy, not about the cancer obviously, ugh, I wish that she would be more open with me. She does know that i'm not gonna leave her right. right?

I don't wanna loose her.. I fought for her for so long, and Im not gonna loose her just because of one thing.. I will work this out with her.. when she wakes up.. I don't wanna wake her up.

*A few hours later*

*Anna's POV*

I woke up, Addie was asleep beside me. So I slid out of bed as quietly as I could.

I went and made her and the kids dinner, And took hers up to her. " wake up beautiful" She looked at me and stared glaring at me. "Why did you make me dinner, when you're the one hurting?" she sounded very pissed with me, but I smiled at her, and said "as of right now, I'm not weak, i can still walk, and as long as I can make food, and do things, i'm going to. That being said please eat. Its your favorite" Her eyes lit up and I couldn't hep but laugh, because she seemed less mad now. Its crazy how food can change people.

*Later that night*

*still Anna's POV*

I laid in bed, thinking. It seems that's all I do anymore.. I think about this cancer, I think about my daughter, And the incoming child i have growing inside of me, and how it happened. Am I proud of it? no, not really. But it happened. And now I gotta live with it.. and the cancer that i have could kill me, and its gonna be sooner then every one thinks......

*712 words*

happy reading beauties<3

A/N; Hello loves, heh im gonna let you use your imagination as to how Anna got pregnant.