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*Addie's POV*

 I woke up  to a little girl with her head on my  chest as she held a picture of Anna in her hands, "hello sweetheart" I cooed, she looked up at me, her eyes filled with tears,  I sat up so I could comfort her better. "shh shh Rain, Honey it will be alright." she snuggled closer to me, I knew what she was thinking, she was afraid of me taking her away from the family she has ever known and give her back to Mickie, "I miss her, I miss her so much".  I hated times like these, Anna was so good with helping the kids and calm them down,  she knew exactly what to do and when to say things they needed to hear, "I know baby,  I know".   Today was her funeral, and we had to get ready.  I put on her favorite dress, her sparkle one, I told everyone to wear a color other then black. Everyone that knew Anna knows how much she disliked the color black at funerals where the person's death was more of a blessing than a curse.  And though her death was both, I know that she would want us to be happy at the fact that she's not suffering.  

I put the kids in their nicest outfits and walked out the door.  I still wasn't use to the feeling of not having Anna beside me, I hated that she wasn't  in the front seat beside me, I hated that I couldn't see her smile at the kids or when she looked at me.     It hurts but I  know that it is what it is, and I know that when i'm strong enough to, I can look back at the pictures I have.  

We got to the funeral home and I couldn't believe what I saw...

*Mickie's POV*

 I heard that Anna had died because even tho her and I didn't talk, her and Thomas talked on occasion and  she had told him how bad it was getting, and she told him that Rain was going to stay with Adryan,  I knew that it was wrong for me to go to her funeral but I was her ex wife, I still love her, I just made a stupid mistake.. But me and Thomas are happy, and I love him to..  It's just hard to explain so i'm not going to even try. Thomas was going, and he told me that it was probably a good idea if I stayed at home because his family was still slightly upset with me, and I don't blame them,  but I refused and argued with him, I won and got ready, I wanted to say goodbye to the girl that once held my heart in her hands. 

*At the funeral*

 I saw Addie and I saw her face completely drop when she seen me walk out of Thomas' car,  I don't blame her tho, I would be upset to see my self there if I was in her shoes.  I made small eye contact and then looked away to avoid hurting her or making her any more uncomfortable then I already have,   I made my way inside with Thomas and our   2 kids, and I felt everyone's eyes on me as I sat down in the back,  Thomas was the first one who went up and seen Anna, She looked so peaceful but you could see the pain on everyone's faces, including my little girl.  MY LITTLE GIRL,  I don't care what someone says, I gave birth to her, and though I got pregnant from another man and from a different relationship, I still bonded with her, I still love her, but I know that her and I aren't going to have a normal relationship as we could, doesn't mean i'm not going to try. But i'll wait until after all this.  I went up and seen Anna next,  I grabbed her hand and slipped on her favorite ring and a small note, I knew that she would never read it, but I felt better knowing that she had it.  I went back and sat down, waiting patiently for everyone else to sit and for the the ceremony to start. 

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