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GET THE HELL AWAY!!!!

*Addie's POV*

I saw Mckayla and my blood began boil. What made her decide it was okay to come with Thomas??  She knew all the hell she put Anna through,  even the hell she put Rain through, she is the last person who I expected to be here, but i'll be nice and let it go for right now,   I walked into the room, and my heart sank when I seen her laying there with no smile, or seeing her eyes, and it took everything in me not to go shake her.   I sat down in  the front row with the kids and soon after I sat down the pastor person came in and began the things he had to do and say.   

After his talking he offered anyone who wanted to about Anna, so I volunteered first. 

"Anna was my wife, she was my best friend, I loved her more then I've ever loved anyone,  she was always so bubbly, smiling,  she was so accepting of everyone, she hardly ever fought with anyone, she loved everyone until she was given a reason not to, In short, she was a damn good women and i'm beyond glad to have called her my wife, and my best friend".   I  sat  back down and tried not to cry.  Dawson walked up, which meant I had to be his translator, but that was perfectly fine by me. 

" Anna was  my second mom, she loved me and taught my other siblings how to sign so that way I didn't feel alone, and that way we could all talk and I could follow, she was my comfort zone, she kept me calm, and I will always be very happy for the time that her and I shared, I will always love her and I will never forget her, or her hugs and kisses". He smiled a sad smile  and got down off the stand. Next Jackson and Rain went together.   Rain started first "Anna was my mom, she was my best friend, She was my doctor when I got a boo boo. She was my cuddle bear when I cried, and she made me smile when I needed one, I will never forget her.    I'll always love her no matter how old I get. She will always be my hero"  Next was Jackson " Anna wasn't my mom, she wasn't even part of my family. well. she was, but not like before, but she took me in, she loved me just like my mom does, she didn't treat me different because I wasn't technically hers, she treated me as if I was and she always put us kids before her, if we needed a plate of food and she had a plate she'd give it to who ever needed without a second thought. I love you Anna" he went up and kissed her forehead.  I held back tears and waited for the service to be over so I could go home and cry.  I saw McKayla go up to the stand, as she chocked back tears as she said, " I know I screwed up, I know I destroyed Anna. Trust me, the day she found me with Thomas I knew I destroyed her, but I love her, almost as much as I love Thomas. I hate how you all  look at me, like i'm a monster, i'm not,  just messed up, and hurt someone. That being said, I loved her, there will always be a special place in my heart for her,   I  remember when Rain was born, her eyes filled with tears at the sound of her cry, She smiled her famous smile, and she looked at her and smiled proudly. And that will always be my favorite memory because in that moment, she was so beautiful, so happy,  pain free. I am sorry I hurt her, but I don't really regret it"  

Shortly after Mckayla gave her "speech"  the pastor guy told us that we were free to leave, and go to the place where she would be placed for her eternal rest.   I got the kids and the car and explained/signed what was happening,  and what the next few steps were going to be.  We got to the place, and I seen her dad's headstone and seen where she wrote "dad" and part of me broke inside, but I held my self together for the rest of the ceremony.   So, finally when it was over, I ran to my car with my kids and we  drove home , and I ran to "our" room and smelled the scent of her perfume and I finally broke. I will never be the same, not after today, I just hope I can still be a good mom even though I'm grieving..." 

*798 words*