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breaking both my hands, telling me to take it like a man.
the great escape // we are scientists

michael walked into school the next day, late as always. don't get him wrong, he hated going late to school. because once he walks into the classroom all eyes are on him and paying attention to only him.

and one thing about michael is that he hates attention.

you'd think it's stupid. him being the bad boy of course he gets lots of attention, so shouldn't he like it? he loves intimidating people and feeling powerful next to people. knowing that with one sweet look or glare he can get whatever he wanted. but he hates attention.

michael never knew exactly why but he just doesn't like feeling people's eyes on him, knowing that they're judging him. staring deep into his flesh and through his bones and past his atoms that make up his soul. possibly seeing right through his bad boy reputation. he didn't like feeling vulnerable in such a way.

he walked into his english class, ignoring the stares and sitting in his regular seat.

"late again clifford. not surprised" mr. walters laughed, handing the assignment that they were currently working on to him. michael smiled and shrugged, taking the paper from his hand.

mr. walter was probably the only adult that understood michael in the way he wanted to be understood. he knew michael's dreams, plans, and helped michael on his essays and projects. he probably knew michael better than his own father did. mr. walters was more of a father than his own father was. that made michael upset, but so grateful at the same time for him.

michael finished the assignment with ease, handing it back to him in a matter of minutes. english was his strong suit, even though he didn't like to admit it.

he doesn't want to ruin his reputation, it's all he had.

he put his headphones is, quietly drumming his fingers on the table to the beat of neck deep.

the bell rang and he got out of his chair, walking towards the door but not without catching a glimpse of luke. geez, did that boy do some things to michael.

they kept eye contact for a while, luke giving him a small smile. michael was so curious about the boy and he's only talked to him a few times. he could look into those baby blues all day.

he doesn't smile back, only giving a small nod and walking to his next class.

as he walks to his second period his phone buzzes in his pocket. he takes it out and looks to see who messaged him.

ashton:

hey! don't go to your next class, i need a smoke and someone to talk about my problems to

pulling a cigarette from his pocket, he puts it to his lips, lighting it with match and inhaling the toxic smoke. he blows it out and walks outside, deciding not to go to his next class like ashton suggested.

ashton was michael's best friend since they both could talk. ashton was also part of the gang along with himself and the others.

michael walked out the doors and quickly walked to the ditch behind the school where they always met up. he spotted the honey haired boy, sat next to him and smiling small, pulling a cigarette out for him. ashton returned the smile and took it from his hands.

michael lit it up for him and watched him take a drag.

they sat their in silence for only a moment until ashton finally spoke up.

"david and i fought again this morning" he mumbled quietly.

michael sighed, "what about this time?"

"he said that I was a lousy boyfriend. and that i never give him enough of what he deserves" he played with the patch of grass next to him, "he's starting to make me believe that i'm horrible and i don't like to be reminded of it"

"ash, you are not a horrible person. he's just saying that to make you feel like shit, he always does this. he always makes you feel worthless when you're nothing but a sun that everyone revolves around. you're so much more than that, you deserve so much more"

ashton simply smiled, "this is why you're my best friend"

michael hugged the hazel-eyed boy and held him close. he never liked the sight of a sad ashton and he would do almost anything for him, maybe even give up his life for him. but of course, michael would never say that.

"i'm just afraid, ya know? like what if he's right and i never find someone to love me"

"you will, you just have to keep on looking. and i know for a fact that david isn't the one"

ashton lightly kissed michael on the cheek, "love you michael"

he chuckled and smiled at the boy, "it surprises me just how gay you really are"

ashton rolled his eyes and they stayed there until the bell for fourth period rang.

A/N: cute chapter to show that michael isn't really a bad boy but a sweetheart but just keeps his reputation up because rEASONS that you'll eventually find out. sorry I haven't updated and oH MY GOD GUYS I GOT VIP TICKETS FOR 5SOS IM GONNA SEE MY BABIES NSJZJSKAO I CRY but other than that I hope you had a great day and I love you (-: please remember to vote and comment and possibly recommend this novel to your friends and such. it would mean the absolute world!