Drunken DMs

Chapter 38

Michael

Eventually we were allowed in to see Leah. My mind was going crazy with thoughts of what the doctor had said, will she remember me? I asked my self in my mind over and over again, "it's gonna be okay man," Ashton said
"How do you know that?" I groaned, "the doctor fucking said she could have amnesia, that means she won't remember,"
"He said temporary," Amber butted in, "meaning she's not going to forget forever,"
"I know, but I'm pretty sure I hurt her when I left," I sighed, running my hands through my hair
"Does that even have an impact on it though?" Calum asked

Another hour later the doctor came out again, and told us we could go and see her. She wasn't awake yet; but she would be soon, "but just one at a time," the doctor told us, "incase she wakes up, you wouldn't want to overwhelm her,"
"Alright," I nodded, and then turned towards Amber, "you should go in," I told her
"Are you sure?" She asked, I just shrugged. Honestly I don't know if I could handle seeing Leah in the hospital bed. It's just going to make me feel even more like shit
"You should go in Mike," Luke said, "you'll probably be the first one she asks for when she wakes up," I just nodded and followed the doctor to her room.

I took a seat on the chair beside the bed, and took in her appearance, cuts and bruises everywhere, "I'm so sorry baby," I told her, not knowing if she could hear me, "I'm so sorry I left you, but I'm here now baby girl, I'm here," I couldn't stop the tears from falling. This was probably the fifth time I've cried since getting to the airport, "I know you probably can't here me, but I'm so sorry; I never should have left, I should have believed you," I sobbed, I brought her hand up to my face and kissed it, "I'm not leaving this time though, I'm gonna be here til you're better," I continued, "you're probably gonna get the shock of your life when you see who else is here for you," I squeezed her hand, "they're all really worried about you, especially Amber," I didn't even know if she could hear me, "Amber walked into my room at the hotel near the airport and started abusing me in Spanish or something," I let out a small laugh at the memory from a few hours ago.

I stayed there for a little longer, mainly just in silence starring at the bruised, yet still beautiful blonde girl who had stolen my heart, "please wake up Leah, please baby, I'm so sorry. I don't know what I'll do if you don't wake up or don't remember me," I began to sob even harder, "I'm so fucking sorry, this wouldn't have happened if I stayed and let you explain. Please baby wake up, you're all I care about,"