Adri's POV
So it was now Wensday, I still hadn't finished my stupid essay and Calum still hadn't asked me out. I told Shawn about our little picnic and he said, "that's cute" like the kind of "cute" a girl uses when she's informed that her newly ex boyfriend got a new girlfriend.
Our friendship went from odd to awkward but nothing had changed it was werid. But whatever it was last period and I had to take Grayson to baseball which gave me another reason to nt write it.
I sat in math going over what happened with me and Shawn. A little part of me thought he was.. jealous.. but it didn't add up we were best friends for 14 years I don't think he could ever see me like that.
(shes sixteen)
The bell rang dismissing my confusing thoughts and I walked straight out of that class. Shawn greeted me with a warm smile and I returned one.
"How was hell?"
"Worse than usual" he said.
"Relatable." Was all I said and he laughed.
I told him I had to take Grayson to baseball and he said that his friend Noah, yes the too-hot-for-the-sun Noah, was throwing a party on Thursday. I agreed to attend and he said, "cool". So that's that.
I walked home to find Grayson in his baseball uniform sitting at the table.
"You took forever" he groaned.
"Adriana if you don't want to take him anymore I will" my mom told me and I cringed at the sound of my voice.
"No!" I shouted realizing that not taking him will lower the amount of hours I could spend staring at Calum. "I mean.. No it's.. Fine" I acted and she rolled her eyes.
"Fine go" she told me and Grayson got up and we walked to the car. This time I took my bag on the count of trying to start my essay that was due tomorrow. Fun.
We sat in the car and I started it and backed out of the driveway.
"How was school?" I asked him.
"Good" he mumbled
"Actually"
"Terrible"
"Ah, I hate how people ask you how you are and you decide to tell the truth and say bad and then they ask why. Sometimes I want not being okay to be okay, telling people how you feel is so hard because they'll never really understand or just judge you."
He stayed silent.
"But why? You don't have to tell me if you don't want too" I said and he sighed, "life is just not worth living" he told me. "We all feel the same way one point in our life. Just hang in there, everything's worth trying"
"I knew you wouldn't get it" he mumbled, "go into further detail" I spoke.
"I don't want to be here" he snapped "no one wants me here" he continued "I shouldn't be here"
"Grayson, I've never related more to a sentence in my entire life" I told him and he looked down at his hands.
"My name is Adriana, a Spanish name every Spanish girl is dying for but I hate it and I call myself Adri, I have no girlfriends I only hang out with boys which is convincing mom I'm a lesbian, I'm the middle child, I get C's and B's, I'm independent, quiet, good, I don't speak Spanish and I can barely understand it." I told him, "I'm normal but to this family in a complete outsider. Do you know how big of a disappointment I am to mom? Do you know how many times she stutters when she's about to say my name and then just calls me "your sister""
"I'm invisible. And the only person who sees me like everyone else is my dad. And that stopped when I was 8 when he promised me a pack of jolly ranchers if I didn't tell mom he was making out with my teacher after a 3rd grade parent teacher conference." I said quickly. "And now he can't even look at me if he even has the time cause he's too busy shoving his tongue down every girl over the age of 21. Meanwhile I have one friend. One friend. One person who treats me like every one else and guess what is starting to loose interest in me. I'm too much for people, I guess that's the problem." I parked tears stinging my eyes.
"Just forget about it okay, im not gonna kill myself mom has too much on her plate and even if I died mom would probably forget when my funeral was anyways" I said and he looked sad, but mainly shocked.
We walked into the sports centre, Grayson signed up still a little too suprised to speak to me. We walked in and I sat on the bleachers, took out my notebook and wrote the essay I had to hand in the next day.
"Adri," Calum spoke after a while. I looked up to find the place empty, Grayson probably went home with his friends.
I looked up to find him smiled at me and I forced one back, "wanna practice a little?" He said and I smiled.
(WHY CANT I BE ADRI IM LISTENING TO HALSEY WITH HEADPHONES IN SMILING AT MY PHONE SLOWLY FALLING IN LOVE WITH CALUM WHILE MY HEART BREAKS EVERY SECOND I REALIZE THIS ISNT ME. WHY CANT I JUST JUMP INTO MY PHONE AND LIVE HER LIFE)
"Um yea" I hopped down and he handed me a bat.
"K so a trick I showed the guys is take out all your anger on the baseball. Ready?"
"Yea" I breathed. He threw it and I swung like the ball was a piñata and happiness would fall out of it, instead of candy.
"Woah" he dodged it. "That would have killed me" he laughed and threw another ball. We kept practicing back and forth until the manger came in and told me to go home and him to clean up.
"Thanks for this, helped" I handed him the bat and began to walk up the bleachers.
"No" he grabbed my hand and I looked down at him "you can stay a while, it's cool" he said and I walked towards him. "You sure?" "Yeah" he said. "You can help clean up." He said and I smiled.
He grabbed a bin of balls and spilled half of them on the floor.
"Oh no" he said sarcastically and I laughed getting on my knees and began to pick them up as he glances at me from the closet.
After I picked them up I sealed the container and brought it into the closet. He pointed to a shelf where it goes and tried to push it but I couldn't reach, he grabbed it from me and put it up without struggle.
"I can do it!" I whined and he laughed "I'm a big girl!" I said in the same voice.
I went back for the bats and he took one out and looked at me.
"Adri, I am your father"
(no doubt. im a luke girl how did i end up here. *breaks out into song* k sorry)
I picked up one and we played with them imagining they were light savers.
While he put those in I grabbed the baseball gloves and put them on the top shelf labeled, gloves.
After, I turned around and he did too. The closet was small, not enough space or air for more than 4 humans but just enough for baseball equipment. He looked at me with a blank expression on his face before he leaned in and kissed me.
His lips warmed my body and I kissed back. He pushed me against the shelf his hands resting on my waist.
"Calum! I told you to get rid of her!" His manager yelled and we separated immediately. Me, Calum, and calum's manager stared at eachother like we were having a silent staring contest.
"Bye pumpkin!" He yelled and I scurried to my backpack sitting on the white bleachers. I grabbed it swinging it over me shoulder and walked to the door while Calum was getting yelled at we held eye contact, him smirking and staring me down until I left replaying what happened over in my head.
