Adri's POV
I dropped my books loud on the tile floor, picking up my feet and dropping them again talking me into a speedy dash.
I ran all the way out of the library not taking one look back - I ran through the halls knocking down some peoples stuff, throwing some over but I didn't care. I saw the girls bathroom in the corner of my eyes so I ran in, running to the stall farthest from the public.
As soon as I entered, I dropped to the floor and held my head as I sobbed uncontrollably loud.
The stall door wasn't locked and I didn't care, people could hear me and I didn't care.
I cried until my palms were pools, until my lungs hurt, until girls started whispering.
I had no right to be crying, I had no right to feel this was but I inflicted it upon myself.
I decided that he wasn't worth it, so I left. I ignored him. I even hurt him. I demolished our friendship as I moved on and once he does, I turn on him? Ofcourse I could just fix this problem by accepting reality and facing the struggles and consequences of my dumb decisions, but I can't.
Maybe, it's because I'm desperate? Maybe, I read too many books?
Maybe, it's just the never ending crave for love, that just so happened to be cast on me.
Maybe it's that I just want to be hugged and kissed and looked up at as beautiful and as an angel, maybe I just want someone to finally feel something towards me other than hate. I'm just desperate, I don't actually like Shawn.
That's what I thought but it just comes full circle, I'm jealous.
•••
I walked home, empty handed in the pouring rain.
My arms crossed over my chest I refused to shiver, I refused to feel.
"Adri!" I heard someone call out.
I turned around to see Calum walking out of his house and then towards me.
"Your back." He breathed, shoving his hands into his back pockets.
"Yeah, well I need to go" I wiped a tear and turned around but he grabbed my arm, "wait, did you get my voicemail?"
"yes calum," I sighed "I got it."
a long empty screaming loud silence fell over us until he spoke again.
"I'm really sorry, about everything, I was an idiot, really, if you could just give me-"
"can we talk inside?"
•••
he walked me inside his house, I breathed in the warm air and the light scent of vanilla. he brought me sweatpants and a t-shirt and made me hot chocolate.
he took care of me.
"Okay listen," Calum sat down opposite from me at his dining table.
"I was a dick, I'll admit it. I messed with other girls, I talked behind your back, I was a dick. but when you were in buffalo I felt something - I felt empty. I felt as if something was missing, and you were it. I like you way past the word 'like' and it's scary. I just don't want to loose you, so, can we just start fresh?"
silence.
"im adri, and you are?"
