poems

Yesterday

I can't wait for myself any longer
I need to leave him behind to get stronger
I can't fight for this no more
I give up I do t want to settle the score
I'm dead now but I am free
So why wont the old one let me be
I can't last much past a day
I'll lay here come what may
My corpse lays there
I even visited its grave
I left a few words for my past
I just hope that those words last
He my old life I downcast
When I cried out my heart
I bleed straight from my start

I can't bear my name
But I can bear my shame
I clearly am not me
How can they all not see
Is it that they want him back
The one whom my face did crack
Sorry but I left him foe dead
You'll have to deal with me instead
I couldn't live one more day
I couldn't survive that way

They say I'm fine or my mind is gone
But it was never there
I but my smiling mask so long
You can see my scars now I show you with care
What once was hidden now laid bare
I can't believe it took you all till now to see
After I had already killed me
I buried my sin and my lies that day
When my last smile I three away
My last tear dropped
My final song done
Now you see what had already begun
You see the blank stare and ask if I'm ok
So why couldn't you ask (me) yesterday?