poems

Black Light (Seeds of Darkness((sown)))

I glance behind and look ahead
I see no smile on a head
Blank stares there instead
So I muster with all my grace
A bright wide grin on my face
I smile wide with all my might
And all it gives an awful fright
My smile begins to grow
And every which way glow
As happiness I sow
To all here below
And from me my happiness flow
Till all that can do know
Till all around are glad
And no longer a one is sad
Until all the air has left
And in its wake an awful cleft
a big black hole where I was
Happiness given was its cause
Give till nothing is left
This is what leaves that horrid cleft
The pillar of darkness in my wake
All for all's sake
My life they all take
Once again others quake
I am left in pain to shake
There smiles once again gone
Because my gift has no brawn
And in sight no new dawn

So I give away another smile
All of them gone but none know for a while
The smiles given but a mask
Keep handing out though is my task
Make them smile though light is gone
Till lights a new dawn
Born of light to die by fire
Ice to wield my life's ire
Till of this game I tire
Till all see I'm the truthful liar
I live a lie every day
As (when) my life I give away

All happiness is but left
A drop I selfishly have kept
Ignorance indeed is bliss
This I truly do miss
Not to know might give me peace
But my life is on a short lease

False hopes to hold and inspire
Light to grow my true desire
Go astray to live a day
Live with false life and stay
Give grey light to all that pass
Darkness breed in light to last
Till all look and gasp
As finally the truth they grasp

When rivers hold my life
When taken by a knife
Rivers run in rivulets of red
When gun flash bright against my head
When I rest that weary head
When at long last my light is gone and I am dead
Living for the life I lead
When golden noose around my neck
When Death a friend to me doth beck'
Life in death but death in life
Every day drowning in strife

Darkness light and black as coal
Not near as black as my soul

Light given breeds sorrow
But life it still doth grow

Smiles all around I see
Yet they do not comfort me
At long last with lived ones be
At long last true light I see
Pitch black light
On darkest bright night
Luminous glow of the moon
Reflecting light all too soon

I depart my ruined throne
Seeds of darkness I have down
These the ones that I have thrown
And all their responsibility I own

Light from all seen by none
Because it is lost not won
And we all comprise a sun
We see light where is none
Because of hope where death has won
All weights a feather weighs a ton

A rope is here
Yet shield is near
I don't die because I fear
I would cause many a tear
But on such I am not clear

Even though it's blackest light
I do see in the brightest night
I live for others not for me
I hope light smiles give them glee
I hope that they never flee
When no light in the dark we see
So then they turn to me
Atlas may have had it rough
But he had a weight not near as tough
as the life I bear
To this dead light dark smiles share
All because I truly care
(But hope is what I do not dare)
With all the world till all are (is) grey
And oh that I may
Live to fight and see another day
See new light when all goes black
Scared of what lays at my back
But forced my fears to pack
As fear or bravery I lack
Where all can "hit the sack"
Because light's best seen when it's in lack

When all the world is gone and dark
May my friends my words hark
That's when we'll see the light
When all day is night
When we embrace the blight
And the dark holds no fright

When all Earth is cloaked in night
That is when we see black light

This is why I love the stars
Though friends are better by far

Light of my dark smile I see
Yet ( though) I still play my game with glee

Mt mask is off my magic thrown
Now you may chose what is shone
What you chose for life this day
Matters a lot little long the way
But keep my secret till new day
To tell and show me how I'm alive
And in your heart my black light does thrive.