poems

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I don't know how to write
And I don't know how to read
I don't know how the think
And I don't know how to breathe

I just keep feeling at home somewhere else

My mind is a trap left alone
I don't feel at home
My mind is missing?
My viewpoint flawed ?
I can't see past all this fog!
I rhyme for a reason
I reason for rhymes
I no see times
I I I everywhere
Me me me ugh
Puke putrecent
Vile and cruel
See please
Seat for two, one?
One.
I seat at a set
And set in the seat
I can't dream let alone eat
I dream of a dream
And live death
I've eaten there, even drawn a last breath
I jumped, I itched
I scratch clawed
Cut battered bruised
Perfectly flawed says glass to fate
I pick up a fork but forget the plate
Sink left running
Running to sink
Sinking I run and drown I think?

I fly float dream die
Fly? Fall face down
Race pace run down
Scream without sound
Tell from behind
Hall twix flight
Left left! Cry but right
Tumble down the rabbit hole

Left to die wither wilt cold
Grow as blue rose

Frozen glass plucked Riverside
Dear you death cried

Toot bye not yet son
Not yet done
Live go die die after death
Live after that, hell?
Heaven is?
Go die hand red filled empty
Dread
Write! How? Write to live! Right to live! Right to die?
Right hall fall up shoot tumble now

Crow fate destiny, sircumstance happenstance up from wonder
Out to clouds black gold silver

Spin on light? Grab hold tight? Shoot down down! Boom crash bang
Clang umph hollow
tree
Dead? Death? Old friend?
Drown again sieze!
Drink dark vengeance
Light in the dark
Skrew loose
Round the screw up and up
Gone again
Grey
Fade
Tick
Wheee
Climb for dear life!
Shadows they follow
Up at your ankles! Grab swollow
No! I cry bong bell chimes
Hickory dickory
Up ding
Climb dong
Gears protrude from my side
Glass mask is broken again
Light filters in

How?

Again

Love, death, despair hope
Cope?
Red? Red? Red?? Red?!?!?
No!
NO, No, no, not again

Not red no no no

Red?

Why? Cry again long and quiet

...
......
Why not? Crows shadow
Why? I say again
Why not comes the insesent reply
Die die die! I tell at shadow past
Last, breath, last till sunlight...

Red.... I think, red, I whisper, red I dream
Brown I see, doves on my face
Vines in a tree, a chair beneath
Brown then? Coos shadow
Brown indeed?
No, I state no brown I need

Colors haunt me especially grey
Nothing then black to fade away
Red? He tries, I cry again

Red
Red I replied dead in sin
White as snow still red black
Black silver red

Red drops the violin
The neck breaks with a shout
Red has not but almost won

Screech still red plays
Over and over
Again and again
It plays in my head
The dead violin
Red stop. Stop. Stop red!
Red continues in water or bed
Red red red
Brown?
White drown
Down down the hole up we go
Square ways fly
Fall? No
Red? Stop!

I played the violin long ago
Wings sprouted
I shouted, bit and clawed
Red dripped
I dipped into black
But quickly came back
Hid red again
My lover of late
Red who I love to hate

Red? Shadow shut up
I said no now leave me alone
Fly? Wings? Sleeves?

No. Pearls? No. Sky? NO!

Stop, stop it, stop stop StoP
Play insesently
Go play play here
Where I no longer belong
Play here play that
Play merri around
Play vio
Play vilence
Drive me over the cliff just to stop and think
I dive over the brink

Purple cool, warm to the touch
Like water, but sheet
Like sky, but not
Stars play
I lay
Sweet dreams dear prince
Sweet dreams indeed
Dream of a dream
Or dream of red?
Heh, lay down your head

Dream of a dream or wind up dead
Dream of a dream to dream instead
Lie stay dream go
Dream of so long ago
Dream of a heart
Dream of a road
Dream of a flower
Dream a drear load
Dream of a lake
Dream of a bridge
Dream of your smile
Sleep sweet prince
Sleep to dream dream to feel
Feel to live
Live to feel
Feel to write
Write to learn and learn to teach
Teach to learn
Learn to dream
Dream now of that dream
That rose of moonlight
Rose to a sight
Rise to the sky
Flail if you might
But moon hold tight
Don't ever let go
No matter how bright
The silver becomes in the night

Dream now of dreams of a day gone by

Dream go go fly
Walk with a dream, talk to her too
See in you mind one one two.
One two three
Thee two you two one me
To you a one to them a two
Too much to say
Too little to do

So sleep now cold one
Sleep and let lie

Give up the ghost
See yourself die
Twice now
Not the third
Hope for hope but now away
Live to wright another day