I Want You... (EDITING)

|Time is of the Essence|

I grabbed the newspaper from my front step with my cup of coffee in hand, I walked back to my living room and plopped down on the sofa while sighing. 'I half expected Amanda not to be here when I would wake..I just had the feeling she would go.' None the less, last night was amazing. Just thinking about being with Amanda that way could drive me crazy, I needed that though. I needed her, I guess she doesn't want me though. But I'm going to give her space ..I said what I had to say and I'm not going to push things, if she decides to talk to me.. then she decides to talk to me. .I guess I will give her time to think after what happened last night, I already know it's going to be really hard, and how I am finding the stength to not get in my car and find her right now is suprising to me..but I guess this is my karma.

-1 Month Later-

This upcoming weekend was July 4th, I was so excited to go down town and watch the fireworks. Robert and I hadn't talked since the night I slept with him.. the first couple days I was suprised that he hadn't called me or anything...but I guess he got tired of chasing me, and apart of me felt hurt..but didn't mind, because after all the breakup was because of him, so I just decided to focus on me and hopefully get over everything. Ofcourse these past weeks were really hard though at times, I always put up a front and acted fine but I was really hurting, Robert was everything to me at one point... my first boyfriend, first love..but I wasn't about to become one of those girls that lets her life fall apart cus of some breakup, no way. I just need to tough it out.

I have been spending alot of my time at the beach. Suprisingly with James...the same week that I had slept with Robert, James had stopped by Chris's apartment, he was gone at the time and I was home alone. So I let James in and we actually hit it off well, we talk regularly now and we have practically have everything in comon. I always thought Robert was extremely attractive of course, but James was a mysterious type of attractive, 'James Dean' was my nickname for him, because he honestly looks like James Dean. What I liked about James was there was this sense that he was interested in me..but he never acted on it, he knew about everything that happened between Robert and I

..so I'm glad he respected my need for time. Chris and I decided we wouldn't pursue anything, Chris is handsome and a great guy, but I just don't see him that way, he's my bestfriend and I am his, and I'd rather us stay as bestfriends rather then as old friends and bitter ex-lovers.

I was asleep on James shoulder, we had been watching movies all night and I knocked out right there on Chris's sofa. My phone rang and I looked at the time '4:36a.m.' 'God damn, Josh this better be good.' "Hello?" Josh practically yelled into the phone, "AmandaIvyswaterbrokewearegoingtothehospital!!" I held the phone away from my ear and sat up, "Okay...repeat that?" "The baby is coming, go to the hospital!" I jumped up, "Oh my god ok I'll be right there!" I shook James awake, he groaned.."Whaaaat? I'm sleeping." I turned the lights on, "Ivy is having the baby I'm going to the hospital!" I slipped my flip flops on and grabbed my car keys, he got up.."Oh.. I'll go with you."

After about 6 long hours of labor at 10:10 a.m. Ivy gave birth to Olivia Mandel. I wasn't in the room, her mom was but I was outside of her room and I could her the screams from in there and holyshit did that scare me, giving birth really sounds like it hurts. Soon Ivy's mom came out of the room crying with a smile on her face, "Everything went perfectly. The baby and Ivy are fine." I smiled and gave her a hug and James walked over with a smile. "You guys can go in and see her in a bit." I nodded and before walking back to the waiting area I looked in the room, Josh was kneeling next to Ivy holding her hands with his forehead on her's, Ivy was crying with a smile and Josh was smiling to. I honestly felt happy just to see how happy they were. After they had time alone with their baby. People were allowed to visit, James and I came in, Ivy looked over at us and I hugged her, she looked over at James "Nice to see you again." he nodded and gave her a smile. They had met a couple weeks ago when he went with me to help Ivy and Josh move to their new apartment. She kept egging on that we were going to date but I told her I wasn't over Robert yet. I walked over to Josh was standing with his parents and Ivy's parents and Olivia in his hands, I saw her and she was a splitting image of them both. She was so tiny, I looked at Josh and he had a huge smile on his face. "I can't believe she's finally here." he said while looking at her as he rocked back and forth, I grabbed her hand, "You and Ivy are going to be great parents." He looked at me, "Thank you Amanda, really." I took a picture with Josh and Olivia, he looked at James.."Your still hanging around with him?" "Who James? Yea..he's a great guy." Josh sighed, "Don't get mad....I called Robert." "So?" "I mean I called him as in he is on his way to see the baby." My fave dropped and looked at him blankly, "Ugggggh Josh." I groaned. He shrugged, "I like Robert...we may of had our differences but he has also helped Ivy and I...she doesn't hate him anymore either." "Ivy hated Robert?" "Well not 'hate' but you know what I mean." I nodded, "I hope that doesn't upset you." I shook my head "No it's okay.." "Aren't you two okay?" I shook my head. "No we haven't talked in a month." he raised his eyebrows..."Well...he will be here soon, so if you and James go I'll understand why." I smiled "Thanks, yea I think we are going to get going I don't want any drama happening..this is your guys' time...I will come by tomorrow" he smiled, "Okay." I got up and walked over to Ivy, "I'll come back tomorrow okay. Get some sleep." she smiled and waved. James followed me outside of the room, "We are leaving?" he asked.."Yea....Robert is coming I don't want drama." He sighed, "I guess so....oh my god that baby is so cute though." I looked at him, "I know right!" he laughed and we walked out of the hospital and to the parking lot. And of course with my luck we ran into Robert, he jumped out of his car right after he parked it, "Amanda." he called out. I looked over at him and sighed. James looked at me and then at him, "Is that him?" he whispered as Robert walked across the parking lot, "Yup." I said blankly. I gave him the keys, "Can you get in the car?" he looked at me with a confused face, "Please?" he rolled his eyes and got into the drivers seat. I walked a forward to meet Robert in the middle. He had on dark blue jeans with red Pumas on and a Pink Floyd t-shirt. I couldn't tell how he was looking at me because he had on his all black Ray Ban sunglasses, I could tell he had gotten a haircut and he got his goatee lined up, he looked so good..'Concentrate Amanda!' "Long time no see.....or talk." he said confidently as he stood infront of me. I nodded and gave an awkward smile. We stood there in awkward silence for a couple seconds and I knew it was coming..there is no small talk with this man. He licked his lips "So." he let out a sigh, "Are we just done for good?" I looked away and shrugged..his mouth twitched, which is what he always did when he was annoyed. James had turned on the car and lowered the window, the music was pretty loud, we could hear it, Robert tilted his head and looked at the car. I turned to see James sitting halfway in the car with the door opened and one leg out while smoking a cigarette. I looked back to Robert and he was starring at me. "Who is that?" he asked calmly. I sighed, "Robert what do you want?" he took of his sunglasses and stepped closer, "I want you..." his brown eyes were piercing into mine..I had to look away, "Well, I don't know if I want you." he shook his head, "So you go and run off with that...guy over there." he said while gesturing towards James..I rolled my eyes, "Okay first of all I'm not with him...he's just a friend." Then he got closer..as much as I wanted to.. I couldn't back up. He looked me in the eyes and then they wandered to my lips, "Spend the day with me atleast." he said quietly. I could smell his after shave and cologne..he smelled so good. "I-" "I think you should back up a bit buddy." James cut me off as he came up behind me and put his hand on my shoulder. Robert straightened up and looked at James while putting his sunglasses back on, he stood there with a smug look on his face and chewed his gum like always. James was still standing there, "Do you mind." Robert said "Just leave her alone man." Robert looked at me, "Amanda, do you want me to leave you alone?" I looked at him and I didn't know what to say..I was tongue tied, the tension between the three of us was so high you could cut it. "Amanda." Robert said waiting for my answer. I opened my mouth and James turned me around with his hand on my shoulder, "Let's go Amanda." Robert grabbed James by the wrist, "She's a big girl Amanda can make her own decisions." James looked at Robert, "Don't touch me dude." "Then mind your own fucking business kid." James stepped forward and shoved Robert. I turned around "James." Robert stood there calmly with a smirk on his face, "Did I strike a nerve kid?".."Robert..." He smiled and looked at James, "C'mon man don't puff out your chest if your not gonna do anything." Robert stopped looking at James and diverted his attention to me and James stepped forward and punched Robert in the jaw. I was shocked...James didn't seem like that type of guy...Robert calmly took of his glasses and put them in his pocket, "Alright you little shit." he mumbled, he stepped forward ..James swung at him again but Robert caught his fist in his hand and used his other to punch James. James flew back and almost fell, I stepped forward and people started to gather around, "Guys stop it!" I yelled, Robert looked at me and James tackled him from the side, he punched him in the nose and the blood started to flow out. He was about to punch Robert again when I stepped in and grabbed his arm, I don't know why but to see James hurting Robert struck something in me. "What the fuck get off him!!!" I pushed him and he fell over. I grabbed Robert by his arm and pulled him up. Robert wasn't hurt but he was bleeding, he was smirking at James and wiped the blood coming out of his nose. "Just take my car and go to Chris's..." James looked at me holding onto Robert..he shook his head, "You know...I don't understand why you stand up for this asshole.." "You're the one who hit him first!" I yelled in frustration, Robert grabbed me, "It's okay just let him go." he said quietly. James looked at me and then turned around and stormed over to my car. I sighed and watched as he drove away. "Why did you have to provoke him?" Robert looked at me and then looked at the ground. I put my hand up to his face where there was blood smeared, "Keys." He gave me the keys and we got in his car..."Where are we going?" "I'm driving myself home..I need to pick-up my mail." "Oh....have you seen your mom?" "No not really but we are okay again." He nodded his head...he was really quiet the whole ride as if he was ashamed, it made me feel bad.

I walked into my house Robert stayed in the car, my mom was home and my dad was on the sofa like always, "Hey dad." "Hey sweetie, haven't seen you here.." "I know I needed to check my mail." he nodded and I walked to the kitchen counter where all the mail was kept. I guess my mom was in the shower so I just grabbed my mail and left. I went back to the car and Robert just sat there and looked at me, I read through some of the mail when I found something I had been waiting for. My reply from University of Southern California..I decided that I wanted to produce movies, I knew it would be hard and that it's a long process..but being a film producer was the only way I could think of to still be involved in film making. I looked at the letter, "What's that?" Robert asked while turning his body towards me..I applied here but.....I don't think they will accept me.." "Why not? You were Valedictorian. You have a 4.0 GPA and you got a 32 on your ACT. Honey you could get in anywhere." I looked at him and he sheepishly smiled. "I wasn't in any clubs, I want to major in Film Production and I haven't done shit.." I starred at the letter again still parked in my drive way, he sighed, "If you don't open it then I will." I smiled...I opened the letter I couldn't say anything.."Well?" I didn't say anything I just looked at the paper.. he leaned over "Amanda?" he said softly. I gave him the letter and he read it, "A full ride for 4 years to USC." he put down the letter and pulled me into a tight embrace, I almost cried of joy. But then he pulled away and quietly looked at me..."Are you gonna go?" I nodded with a smile..I couldn't even say anything from how happy I was. He gulped and handed me the letter, I looked back at it...I was so happy I hadn't noticed that he was hurt or even bothered. "I can't believe it." I said quietly. "Me too." he mumbled, "So you're gonna live there?" "Yea I'm gonna dorm there." he looked away.."I'll be back!" I said as I got out..I ran into my house and upstairs..my mom was still in the shower and I opened the door "Mom I got accepted to USC!!" I yelled, she screamed and poked her head out from behind the shower curtain, "Amanda what the hell you scared me! When did you get here!?" "I just came to get my mail and this finally came in. I got a full ride mom." "Sweetie I am so proud but can you let me get dressed?" I laughed and closed the bathroom door. I went downstairs to the living room, "What's all the yellin about?" my dad said.."Oh nothin you're just looking at someone who got a full ride to USC." he looked at me, "Are you serious?" I smiled and nodded, "Im so proud of you Amanda." he got up and hugged me. My dad wasn't the type to really show his emotions but when he did it was special. My mom came down with a towel on her head and her pajamas on, "How long do you have until you go sweetie?" I shrugged, "I don't know I guess until the middle of August, school will start in the fall." "That will be here before you know it..I'm so proud of you." she hugged me and I could tell she was starting to cry, "Mom...why are you crying." I said while sighing, "We live on the east coast..California is so far..." I nodded "I know mom but we all have to follow our own paths. And going there will start my life...we just have to enjoy the time we have until I go." She smiled and wiped the tears away, "You're right sweetie..what are you majoring in?" "Film Production." I said while beaming. She sat next to my dad, "You have always been a hard worker..I know you can make it." "Thanks mom." "Oh I just can't wait to tell Charlie when he gets here." my smiled faded, "How is he?" "Same old Charlie." I sighed..."Well where is Kassy?" "She's sleeping at her friends house." "Well tell the brat I said hey." I said while walking to the door, "Bye sweetie." "Bye mom." I closed the door and Robert was sitting on my front steps. "Didn't want to sit in the car anymore?" he shook his head, "Not really." I sat next to him. He wouldn't look at me, "What is it?" he scratched his beard, "I take it that's it...there won't be an 'us' again.." I hadn't even thought of that, I was so happy about being excepted that I didn't think of Robert. "Robert..I- I didn't think of that, I still love you deep down, but..." "Don't give me false hope Amanda.. I know what you're getting at...I get it, I told knew you'd get accepted." He got up and walked to his car. And I just sat there on my front steps, he got in his car and pulled out of my drive way, he didn't even look at me, he just drove away. I just decided to sit outside for a while. I seriously needed to think.

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There ONE chapter left everyone. So comment comment comment! Tell me what you guys want to see happen, tell me what you think will happen and if you like how this chapt. went. So sadly I couldn't find a job for the summer and I am officialy done with school for the summer..I'm finally a senior since.. I have no job I will have alot of free time. So there WILL be a sequal to this all the info about it will be posted in the next chapter and I am also going to make another RDJ fanfic but he will be his celebrity slef in that one.

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