It's hard to be or do something when you feel like nothing. When you feel like there's no air in your lungs and your brains no longer functioning. It's hard to be something when everything you do turns out wrong. It's hard to do something when you feel like nothing's going to work. How do I find a purpose from nothing? It's like baking a cake with no flour. It's like riding a bike with no wheels. It's like trying to breathe underwater. There's no reason, no purpose, and no way in hell it'll work. So how do you "be?" What do you do? Maybe I don't want to be something, maybe I've tried to hard. But right now I'm here with nothing and I promise you if I try they'll laugh. So don't tell me it's all okay and don't tell me to keep trying. You can't tell me to be something when there's nothing to be. No reason. No purpose. No way in hell it'll work. It's like falling asleep alone and dreaming of waking up next to you. How can I be something if there's nothing to be? "Be something, do something, try again." There's nothing to be, nothing to do, nothing to try. How do you be something when you feel nothing and there is nothing to be? I want to be something, I promise. I want to do something, I promise. But right now all I have is oxygen and motivation. How can I be something when there is nothing? Bake me a cake without flour.
