I'd do anything to get you back because this sadness is killing me. I want to be okay and the only memory I have of being okay was when I was in your arms. I want to love you and I want you to love me. I want to feel again. I don't want to be empty and sad everyday of my life. I want to be able to smile and laugh without hurting inside and I want to be able to cry knowing that when I stop crying I'll be okay again. I want to be able to bleed and know that if I cover it with a bandaid it will heal. I want to know that I won't rip off the bandaid and reopen the scars. I want to know that I won't scratch my wrists until they bleed. I want to know that I won't be self destructive. All these things I knew with you.
