There's so many words id love to say to you if only you were listening. I'd love to tell you how much I appreciated you and how amazing you made me feel. I'd love to talk about our relationship and the good that came out of it. I'd love to smile next to you and call you my friend. But all you can think is oh, here we go again. All you believe is that I'm needy and want to lure you back in to me. I'm not trying to get you to love me again. I'm not trying to force your love. I'm trying to get you to understand that all I want to do is talk. Because it's not alright for me to feel this way, and I want to be able to talk to you again. Maybe not the way we used to, but I want to talk. I want you to remember me. I want to focus on good things and I want to mean something to you even as a friend. I want a lot of things but I know that all your thinking is that I'm going to pull you back in and make you feel so bad for me that you're forced to come back. Stop thinking that please. I don't want to loose my best friend.
