Don't Forget Me (Larry AU)

Epilogue

"It's me who is my enemy.

Me who beats me up,

Me who makes the monsters,

Me who strips my confidence." -Anonymous

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depression (noun).

Severe despondency and dejection, accompanied by feelings of hopelessness and inadequacy.

A condition of mental disturbance, typically with lack of energy and difficulty in maintaining concentration or interest in life.

Have you ever thought that things just feel "off"? Or "wrong"?

You feel like crying for no reason.

Once the monsters pull you in, you can't get them out. They stay in your head. You can't get them out no matter how hard you try. No matter what you do. It stays with you.

Once you start to feel better, the depression sinks its claws into you and drags you back.

Depression is like a nightmare. You can't control anything you do. There's no way out and you feel like nobody cares. No matter what you do, you're never good enough. You'll always be useless, never good enough, worthless, and hopeless. You're scared and lonely all the time. No matter what you're doing or who you're with the feelings are always there. It feels like an endless circle of pain, guilt, worthlessness, fear, and weakness.

You feel like there's no point in trying anymore. It's an endless circle of failure. You feel empty, like you're not really existing. You're breathing, but that doesn't mean you're alive. It hurts to smile, hurts to laugh, hurts to breathe. Everything you do hurts, and there's no way to get away from it. No one understands what you're feeling. You're silent, but in reality you're screaming for help but there's no one to save you. You're on your own from now on.

Everything you do leaves you tired. Things you used to enjoy, they don't bring any comfort to you. People don't understand what it's like to live in the lonely world of depression. It's your throat tightening with every sob as you cry making it harder and harder to breathe. It's hoping that every night you won't wake up, that maybe the pain will finally stop, even though you know it won't. It's about always lying when someone asks 'Are you okay?' It's always feeling tired, even if you sleep for ten hours. It's feeling so weak, every single muscle in your body aching.

Depression is all of those things, and so much more. It's unexplainable. Only you know what your depression feels like. You know how horrible it is. You know it feels like it'll never end.

You always have those people who can help bring you out of it. But in reality, depression can never leave you. It's always sitting on your shoulder, reminding you of how you felt. All the dark days.

There'll be days, then there'll be bad days, but it will never leave.

It will always be with you.

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(Third Person POV)

It's easily said that things changed after Harry and Louis were finally brought home, and it's also easy to say things went exactly back to normal.

Zayn went back to his ordinary life in his small flat, spending his nights in the hole-in-the-wall pub.

Liam goes back to taking extra classes that he regrets as soon as he's in them.

Niall remains in his coma, without any signs of waking up any time soon.

The rest of the family stays in the hospital, recovering from the incident, and mourn over the loss of their beautiful, young daughter.