Finding My Soulmate

Chapter 44

Hazel

I didn't know what to say. I was shocked, frozen where I stood, staring down at the two pink lines.  I felt like I was going to pass out. Finally able to move I went and sat down on my bed. Sidney must have noticed me freaking out and came and knelt before me, taking my hands in hers.

"Why are you so freaked out? This is a good thing right? You and Harry have talked about having kids right? Sidney's voice was soothing and I focused on her thumb running back and forth across my hand.

"We talked about having more kids eventually. No now. I don't even know how he will react. What if he is upset or he decides to leave me like..."

"Don't you dare say his name! Harry is nothing like that lowlife that left you. Harry loves you more than anything and I'm more than certain that he will be thrilled to know you are pregnant," she assure me, reaching over and hugging me.

"I'm scared Sidney," I admit. I'm scared that Harry will think it's too soon, I'm scared that my body isn't fully recovered from my last pregnancy, I'm scared that Chloe will hate me when I have to split my time and attention. And to be honest I scared what everyone will say. I know I will be getting some hate for sure when people hear about me being pregnant.  Maybe Harry and the boys will be done with everything and we will be able to hide out before I show to much.

Sidney, being the best friend she is, knew exactly what I meant, "don't be Hazel. Everything is going to fine. Harry is going to be ecstatic. And don't worry about what everyone will say, you have Harry and they don't, they are all just jealous."

"Is that what you tell yourself about Niall?" I smile.

"Damn right it is.  If you keep reading what people say about you and Harry's relationship it's going to eat you alive and you don't need that stress, especially now," she says, pointing to my stomach.  She's right, I can't let what people will say get to me. I just need to focus on Harry and staying healthy for this baby.

"Your turn," I point to the second pregnancy test.

"Ok! I'll be right back!" She runs off into the bath while I sit on my bed and wait. I start doing the math in my head again and realize that I'm only like two weeks along, maybe two and a half.

I look up when I hear the bathroom door open and Sidney skips over to the bed.  She sits down next to me, smile never faltering.

"I peaked and there was already two pink lines and it had only been like twenty seconds.  Not sure if that means anything." She couldn't hide the excitement in her voice and I was so happy for her. She was going to be a great mother and Niall would be a fantastic father. 

"It means you're definitely pregnant," I wrap my arm around her shoulder and pull her close. " I can't believe we are pregnant at the same time." I couldn't help but laugh,  what were the odds?

"I'm so excited!! This is going to be so awesome!" She is practically bouncing in her seat and I couldn't help but feel a little bit of her excitement. Maybe this will be good thing.

We hear the doorbell go off and we both stand up to head out but Sidney stops me before I walk out.

"Let's keep this a secret for now, alright?"

"Of course," I tell her and give her another hug before heading out to answer the door.  It was way to soon to tell anyone anyways. Plus I'd want to tell Harry first and I'm sure Sidney wanted Niall to be the first to know.

We make it to the door and I let in a few aunts and uncle and some cousins. And that's how the next half hour went. Answering the door every few minutes, the endless hugs and 'I'm greats' and telling everyone why Harry wasn't here. So far things were going great, people mingled and ate food, Chloe was passed around, receiving hugs and kisses. She loved it and was soaking up all the attention. Which cause my heart to drop. What if I can't give her the attention she wants once this new baby is here? Will she hate me? Movement to my right catches my eye and Sidney waves to me and tells me to smile and I did.  I can't let this news stop me from having a good time.  I'll see Harry in a couple weeks and I will tell him then and hopefully I won't be so nervous after that.