i am currently writing in anger.i am fuckng annoyed with everyone right now. everyone as in my mom. yayayayayaya i don't need to go through that whole i love my mom speech you get it. moms need chill sometimes but you love them anyways. so basically, today i went to the mall with my fam. i got a jacket bc there was a sale. the jacket i got is black, short, and is warm af. so i got it. my mom saw the damn price and said its fine. there was a promo where 30% off reg price items and 50% off on clearance. mine was 30% off; i knew this but apparently my mom didn't she thought it was 50 off. the sign was all around the store.
THE SECOND WE GET OUT OF THE DAMN STORE SHE STARTS COMPLAING SAYING SHIT LIKE OK I DONT OWN A SHORT JACKET WOMAN. I myself am only 5'1 ish and having a long jacket makes me look super short. all the jackets i own are long except my winter one. ok anyways, just a few moments ago i go downstairs and ask if i can cut the tag off the jacket and she starts SAYING SHIT AGAIN LIKE OK. SHE SAYS THAT I SHUDNT HAVE GOT IT OR WHATEVER. SHE ALWAYS SAYS THIS ABOUT ANYTHING I GET. YET SHES THE WOMAN WHO HAS A "DRIVING JACKET" AND "DRIVING SHOES". and i can't get one jacket? ok. IN THE STORE, SHE WANTED TO GET ANOTHER SO CALLED "DRIVING JACKET".
when i bring up MY reasons they are reasonable, they aren't stupid. i only own a few jackets and she owns a bajillion of them. i own a reasonable amount of clothes, but anyone who has seen my closet, i personally only wear the same 5 shirts and own 3 pairs of bottoms i like. the rest i keep for no reason or bc I'm too lazy to clean my closet. my reasons are just as equal as hers, maybe even more. i take the bus to and from school, i cannot drive. personally, it's hard for me to find clothes that fit me, especially jeans because i have a wide waist but smaller legs, making them baggy af. even for jackets its the same: i have broad shoulders but smaller torso. it just pisses me off how she thinks things i like or need are invalid, yet she has dumber reasons than me. I'm the type of person who looks at things in both perspectives, and i just feel she's just being biased.
i straight up told her why does everything i need is biased and she says "what you like is expensive." I DONT THROW AWAY MONEY. WHEN PEOPLE BUY THINGS FOR ME LIKE MY AUNTS OR UNCLES I DONT ORDER MUCH. I get a small portion of what i like if its food for example bc i feel bad. even before, i used to feel bad and i still do sometimes when my mom buys me things. when i was young i would never ask for things, even though i really like it. now too, i feel that way. i started to feel guilty about the jacket but she and i have equal reasons for our needs; I'm just as important as she is and her driving shit.
lol I'm supposed to be doing history research that was due how long ago but atm I'm super mad so I'm listening to sounds good feels good bc they're my safe place.
-squid
