IM MRS PADILLA -- SHE'S MY WIFE [KathNiel]

SMW 20

Break up.

She's my wife

Kath's POV (this will be the last pov of kathryn.)

My heart skipped a beat, hindi ko alam kung anong gagawin ko.. She might kill me. Nagulat ako ng bigla niyang kalabitin ang gatilyo. Napapikit na lang ako ng mariin.. But I didn't feel any physical pain. My tears continue to run down in my cheeks. Tumawa siya at pinakawalan ako. "Aw, so lucky my sister. Seems like I didn't put any bullets for today."

I have the chance to run pero hindi ako makagalaw. DJ is telling me to go but I can't. Hindi ko magalaw ang mga paa ko, it feels like i'm chained but i'm not. Unti-unti akong nanlambot at napaluhod nalang ako at umiyak. I can't believe this is all true. This is too much.

"Pathetic. You're so weak! That's why DJ will never love you! No one will stay with you! Everybody is leaving you behind! Poor you, nobody wants you. YOU ARE USELESS." Napa-iyak na lang ako sa sinabi ni Ate Roanna. She's right.. Nobody wants me. Nobody loves me. Because i'm so fvcking weak and i'm so useless. I'm so fvcked up.

My Father, he don't love me. Because he managed to cheat. He chose to cheat! He don't really love me. He don't love our family. Sa lahat ng masasayang ngiti na ibinigay niya samin, hindi ko alam kung totoo ba yon. O napipilitan lang siya. Sobrang sakit, kasi naghanap siya ng iba eh. Hindi ba sapat ang nanay ko para sakaniya?! How could he?! Anong putanginang rason ang meron siya para lang mangaliwa siya?! Kase kung ano mang lecheng rason ang meron siya.. Hindi yun sapat! Because in the first place, he won't cheat if he really love us. Maybe, he really don't love us after all.

My babies, Brae and my second baby.. Maybe they left me because i'm a useless mother.  Wala man lang akong nagawa para sakanila.. Siguro tama nga na iwan na lang nila ako because i am no good. Wala akong kwentang tao. I can't be their mother because i'm the worst people ever. Maybe, they don't want me either.

My bestfriend, Julia. Paano niya nagawang magka-affair kay DJ? He's my fvcking husband for pete's sake! At alam nya yon? Kaibigan ko siya eh! Yung tiwala ko sakanya sobra sobra kasi parang kapatid ko na siya. My friend is not just a friend for me... Parang kapatid ko na. Trusting her was the big mistake I did. But could you blame me? She's my friend! Or maybe she was really not my friend in the first place.

Si DJ, sobrang sakit na ang dinulot niya sakin. In the first place, when he entered my life yes he brought joy.. But he also brought pain. Triple value than the joy he brought to my life. Pero kasi mahal ko siya eh. Mahal na mahal. Nung kay Shi at sa anak namin, pinatawad ko siya kasi mahal ko siya. Kahit sobrang sakit kasi nawalan ako ng anak. Nawalan ako ng isang anghel na magbibigay saya sa buhay ko. Hindi din nila bingyan ng pagkakataon na mabuhay ang anak ko kahit sandali. Yung kay, Brae. Before she died, when I caught DJ and Shi in one bed, pinatawad ko siya.. Kasi mahal ko eh. Kahit sobrang sakit kasi sobrang nagpatong patong ang problema ko that time.. Because also that time, nalaman ko ang tungkol sa kagaguhan ng tatay ko. But forgave him, because I love him so much. Tapos ngayon kay Julia naman.. Hindi ko alam kung sapat pa bang rason na Mahal ko siya kaya papatawadin ko siya. I don't think my love is enough to forgive him. Kasi mismong yung puso ko, pagod na pagod na. Pagod na kong masaktan ng paulit ulit. If he really love me, he won't do this to me. Maybe he really don't love me. Or he never loved me.

"No wife, that's not true. No.. Don't listen to her." DJ whispered to my ears pero umiling lang ako ng umiling i'm so tired in hearing lies. I don't want to hear a lie anymore. I think If I get any more pain, i'll get immune. Konting konti nalang mamanhid na ako. "RIA!" I heard someone shouted. Napalingon naman ako. Tumakbo si Ate sa pinto at nakita kong si Light yun.