drowning|shawn mendes

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• nina love •

as i was driving over to the neighborhood's daycare where i work, i needed some energy to keep me alive. the only thing that was the close enough was starbucks, and well, i'm not a starbucks fan.

but before i could find a parking space, i see shawn and vanessa having coffee. though i couldn't hear what they were saying, i could tell she was making him happier. happier than i'll ever make him.

they stood up, giving a light peck on each others lips, then threw away their coffee cups. i reversed quickly, not wanting to get caught, though, he should be worried if he gets caught not me.

a burning sensation built up in my eyes, giving me a nauseous feeling in my stomach. i tried not to think about it too much since it's my decision to stay, but i just wished the feeling wouldn't kill me so much.

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I've encountered shawn and vanessa numerous times for the past week. their either on a fancy date, making out in his car, or out in the streets holding hands. shawn doesn't even wanna out for ice cream anymore with me.

i acted like it didn't bother me, but inside it's killing me.

we haven't hung out in public since i found out. he's asked if he could come over, but i came up with excuses to not face him and his lies. yet i'm only giving him more time with vanessa and not me.

all his lies are tearing me down. he's tearing me down.

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