drowning|shawn mendes

- goodbye -

• nina love •

"would it be bad if I didn't stop loving you too?" i blurt out, yet not regretting what I had just said.

"nina please, please forgive. gosh I'm such an ass." he cried holding my hand.

"i've already forgiven you, it's okay." i say trying to lighten up the mood.

"i really messed up, I-i didn't think I'd be so stupid to let you go." he continued on, hugging me tightly like he literally didn't want to let me go.

"maybe that was for the best. I mean we're both miserable souls who got played by the one they loved." i sigh.

"but I don't love her anymore, I love you." he reasoned staring into my eyes. he leaned closer and closer until our lips were just millimeters apart. I turned away, and right there I could feel the absolute embarrassment he's feeling.

"i'm sorry. i can't bring myself to that pain again of getting attached to you." he simply nodded and stood up.

"thank you for being the greatest thing i stupidly gave up on because i was a boy thinking i was a man." he kissed my forehead and left my room with no other sound. i laid in bed not crying, but thinking, if we met in a different time, age, would all that happened in the four months he cheated and two months of pure misery never of happened?

would we be together forever like I pictured in my naive little 14 year old head? yet, that hat was my biggest mistake when I was younger. thinking I would get a happily ever after.

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WOW ITS FINISHED. NOW THERE WILL BE AN EPILOGUE I JUST HAVE TO THINK OF IT. THANK YOU TO ALL MY READERS FOR ENJOYING THIS BOOK AS MUCH AS I DID WRITING IT.

I love you💕- shaira