drowning|shawn mendes

- too late -

• nina love •

four months.

four months since i've know. since i had real happiness.

why am i so pathetic?

why can't i just say it?

it's harder for me to even talk to him, knowing vanessa is the only person on his mind. it's like i'm not even important to him anymore. i was probably never even important.

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hours went by until my phone vibrated. i check to see the notification and it was a text from shawn.

shawnee💕: come by my house. I need to tell you something important.

a nervous feeling crawled up to my throat, creating a huge lump. i didn't want to know what he needed to say, for i already have an idea in my head.

i punched in my pass code, then called a close friend of mine to give me a ride since mine has flat tires.

after calling her, i slipped on my boots and zipped up my winter coat. then, i waited for her to come.

10 minutes later, a knock came upon my door, indicating someone was here. i hurried to the door,opening it, seeing lani. our breaths made a white airy substance that the cold winter air produced as we exchanged greetings.

closing the door, i carefully waddled to the car making sure I wouldn't slip. luckily i didn't, and entered the warm automobile.

"so what do you think shawn's important news is about?" lani asked backing out of my driveway.

"i don't know." i whispered, making no eye contact.

"nina? are you okay?" she questions turning over to a corner which lead to another street.

i gave a gentle nod and she took the hint that i didn't feel like talking. minutes passed and we were at shawn's. i gave a polite thank you and exited the car.

trudging through the snow, i looked back and saw the car gone. i sighed, hopping onto his front porch. i rang the doorbell waiting only a few seconds until his tall figure came upon me.

"nina, come in." he usher me nervously.

taking off my shoes and jacket, i made my way over to the couch and sat down. shawn took a seat next to me, closing his eyes before sighing.

"nina, i'm really really sorry." he says shaking his head.

"for what?" i asked perking up a bit.

"i think we should break up." he sighed not looking into my life eyes.

"is it vanessa." i sniffled and his head bowed up.

he looks up with confusion and shock written all over his face.

"i know." i sighed looking down.

"what?"

"nothing. your with vanessa and you don't want to be with me anymore." i say, panick evident in my voice.

"wait, you knew and didn't say anything? how long have you known?" he questioned.

"it doesn't matter, i gotta go." i stood up trying to leave, but his strong hold refrained me from standing up.

"it does matter."

"i'm not the one who should be explaining myself. I wasn't the one who cheated for four months, maybe even longer. i stayed loyal
and committed, but you, you didn't give two shits about me. and now you care? you always care when it's too late!" anger completely over powering my sad state.

"nina, i'm sorry. can we please talk about this?" he whispers grasping my hand.

"no, because if i probably never admitted that i knew you wouldn't care. you'd just leave me crying, like you did for the past four months." I sobbed pulling my hand away from his hold.

"nina you know that's not true."

"shawn, you chose her over me. you don't want me anymore, so stop acting like you care about me. p-please." my voice was so quiet, it was barely audible.

"nina stop crying." he cooed, tears welling up in his eyes.

why was he crying?

he knew what he created, so why?

"i-i gotta g-go." i stood up, placing my shoes and jacket back on not bothering if they looked alright. i just needed to leave. he tried stopping me, but i pushed him right off. exiting out the door, the cold atmosphere froze up my body as well as my tears.

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Hiii! I hope you had a wonderful Thanksgiving and enjoyed this chapter!

I love you💕- ( a very stuffed ) shaira