drowning|shawn mendes

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• nina love •

finally reaching my driveway, i noticed another car. a car that belonged to a relative who never visited except for my mother's funeral.

i thought to myself, 'what the hell is he doing here' as i slowly pranced out of the car, rushing to the front door and knocking vigorously due to the cold. seconds passed and my abuelita answered the door.

"hija, estás en casa." she greets sighing in relief. ( daughter, you're home ) i entered the house creeping over left and right to see who was here.

"abuelita , who's here?" i asked.

"qué?" ( what )

"there's a car outside in our driveway that isn't our's, who's here?" i asked impatiently. she huffs before taking my hand towards the kitchen.

when we finally reached the kitchen two men i remember so vividly are sipping beers and laughing.

"dad?" i whisper. one of them turns around and i couldn't believe it. almost after 5 years he's finally here.

"oh nina. you're so big now." he cries standing up to hug me, while i stood there still overwhelmed.

"w-why are you here?"

"my sentence is over, you're almost 18." he explains still hugging me as if letting go was a horrible idea. i got to admit, i really did miss him.

"i-i don't know what to say."

"me neither, but at least i get to hug my little girl again." he sobs as he gently strokes my hair. our positions stayed like this for a couple more minutes until we finally let go. once we let go, we discovered that both abuelita and my tío left the kitchen.

my dad wiped away some of the tears that made its way down his cheek as he smiled taking in my presence.

"hija, i can't believe i'm seeing you again, it's been so long."

"it really has." i whispered back.

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an hour passed and i got to learn things about him that confused me when i was younger. "when your mother passed, i couldn't think correctly. she helped me with all my troubles as a teenager and she promised we would be together forever, but when that promise was broken i hated everything. i hated the doctors for not saving her in time, me not there to warn her about the slippery roads, oh and the last one. i hated it so much. i hated the way she made me feel when i heard the phone call that she was in the hospital, but yet i could never hate her. you know why?"

i shook my head no.

"because you know you really love someone, when you don't hate them for breaking your heart."

after all the things my mom put my dad through, he could never hate her. then it hit me, "i really love him. "

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OH MY LORD!! THIS TOOK ME SO LONG YOU HAVE NO IDEA!

It may be crappy, it may not. You decide.

I hope you enjoyed this chapter!

I love you💕- shaira