The struggle of acceptance (Jacob Latimore) ON HOLD!

Chapter 14: Her fire and his pain meet

It's been foreverrrr

Jacob POV

"Nani, please pick up baby." I said, leaning another voicemail.

I knew I was in deep. But I was so into Nani I forgot that eventually this shit would catch up to me.

"Fuck" I mumbled, massaging my temples.

I haven't been to school all week and Melissa been blowing up my phone.

I honestly didn't want to speak to anyone.

Except Nani.

But who knows if I'll ever speak to her again.

Cali told me that Nani showed up to school Monday' and Tuesday, but she hasn't heard from her since then.
I stopped by her house a few times, but everytime I do no one is home.

This shit was really starting to get to me.

I didn't want to do anything until I got to her.

I hopped in my car, driving off to the meadow.

I swallowed my spit, scared as hell. I had a pretty good feeling that she was gonna be here, but I didn't know how she was gonna react to seeing me.

I know that I hurt her, and I know I'm wrong, but I just want to show her that none of this shit between us is fake. I meant everything that I've ever said to her.

I parked, hopping out and running towards tree we always use to lay next to.

And there she was.

Laying down on a blanket, a blunt in her hand, facing the water.

She pulled from the blunt, slowly exhaling and letting it leave through her nose.

That shit was sexy as fuck.

"Nani." I whispered.

"Don't even." She spoke, still never turning around. Her back was to me and I wanted so badly to see her face.

"Baby please." I kneeled down to her, touching her shoulder only for her to shrug me off.

"Go away." She spat, taking another pull from her blunt.

"Not until you look at me. Can you at least do that?" I felt my voice cracking, I knew this shit was about to be depressing as hell.

She turned and faced me, tears running down her perfect skin.

I wiped a tear, I hated seeing her like this. And I hated that I was the fucking cause of it.

"I should've told me."

"No shit?" She snapped back.

"But I didn't thing th-"

"That's the problem. You didn't think. You didn't think that she was gonna come back? You had me looking stupid in front of all of your fucking friends! Thinking me and you were actually something."

I looked down. "That's bullshit Nani. You know you mean something to me."

"Bullshit." She fired back, letting her blunt out.

"What do you want me to do to show you how sorry I am?"

"I want you to get the fuck out of my life." She said as more tears fell.

"You don't mean that." I said, dryly.

Her facial expression never changed. "Nani, you don't really mean that, right baby?"

"Im dead ass."

I stood up, dusting my jeans off.

"You tha' first girl I've ever been in love with. I told you shit Melissa don't even know. Yeah I made a mistake, but I told you over and over how much you mean to me. So if you don't wanna listen and lose me, then fuck it." I turned around, about to walk away until she spoke up.

"Lost you? Nigga are you regarded? You lost me. Not the other way around. You fucked up Jacob. You know you can tell me anything! But finding out the way I did was a slap in the fucking face. And to hear you not claim me at all? That shit hurts O'neal!" She yelled.

"Im sorry. I should've just left you alone." I held back the tears.

"Jacob just leave."

I turned, walking back to my car.

Maybe I should just leave her alone. I was fine without her and I'll be fine now.
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