#recommended: Just A Fan { Justin Bieber love story }

Chapter Thirty Four: "You can't give me that look Justin. Not anymore."

~ One Month Later ~

Justin's P.O.V.

I sighed as i threw my bag on the couch, tossing the keys at the new apartment i had bought in Canada, to a near by the door table.

"Are you sure you'll be okay on your own?" My mum asked concern as she crossed her arms in front of her chest.

I chuckled and pecked her forehead. "Of course. Now go, I'll see you tonight" i smiled closing the door in front of her face.

I was finally taking a break from this tour. I had a whole month to myself to rest before i go up on stage again.

I wondered my eyes all over the place. This new apartment is pretty good actually. Really big, with expensive furniture, golden colors everywhere just like i liked it. I offered my mum to buy her one as well but she insisted on staying with her parents, my grandparents.

I plopped myself on the couch and closed my eyes. The only image coming in mind was Lucy's face. It's been a whole month. A whole torturing month since the last time i saw her. To say I've missed her would be an understatement.

The first week since she left wasn't too bad. I mean i could feel her absence but it didn't bother me much cause i had Selena. I thought i was happy with her but soon enough i realize i wasn't. Something was missing. She was missing.

She wasn't with me and although she said i don't need her, truth is i do. After about two weeks i ended things with Selena cause i could also see how miserable she was with me too. Apparently she still had feelings for Taylor. Honestly, i don't care. She can be with whoever she wants.

The only thing i cared about was her. Lucy.

Our last kiss before she left was replaying over my head every single night, keeping me awake.

She wasn't just a fan. No. She is way more than that. She was a friend. A friend who was always there for me when i didn't even wanted her to be. She was a sort of girlfriend since we used to share a few kisses then and there, not to mention that night.

I sighed, running my hands through my hair. That night. The night we, took this a step farther. I can't believe i blow everything up. I could tell from the beginning that what we did that night had changed our relationship for good. She had changed. She wasn't the same and on top of that she had to also put up with Selena.

"I'm not confused Justin, you are" her words still echoed in my mind.

I was indeed confused. I just thought i would never be able to get over Selena. Turns out i had to lose the most important person in my life right now to figure out that i was way over her from the beginning. I didn't need Selena. I needed her and only her.

I tried to contact her. I even involved my mum into this by telling her to call her mum and ask about Lucy but nothing seemed to work.

"I'm sorry Justin but Lucy is not here"

"Sorry Justin but Lucy is busy right now"

"Tell him I'm not here mum" i even heard her one time saying to her mum.

"Sorry Justin but she doesn't wanna talk to you"

Those words hurt me more than i had imagine. After that i just stopped calling. What was the point if she wouldn't hear me out?

I don't understand her though. I thought she was okay with me. She was the one who told me to figure this out on my own and now i have. That's why I'm staying back in Canada. To find her and win her back.

This time I'm not letting anything or anyone stand in my way.

I've messed up before but we all deserve a second chance and I'm sure Lucy will give me one. She knows me. She loves the real me and she understands me perfectly. I had finally found the right girl. She was the right person for me.