#recommended: Just A Fan { Justin Bieber love story }

Chapter Thirty Six: " I can't be that late"

Lucy's P.O.V.

"What am I suppose to do now?" desperation was dripping off my words as I lay on a couch in Susan's office. I had started my therapy the moment I came back, although I wasn't doing any progress it kept me from hurting myself.

I just felt so lost.

"Well, what are your feelings?" she asked, sitting on a chair behind her desk, wearing her glasses and looking at me. I stare out the big window next to me, the third floor of the building had a perfect view of the city.

I sighed. "I don't know, I wish I did..."

"Do you, do you still love him?" he asked, obviously talking about Justin. She knew everything, about me and Justin and what had happened with us those two months on tour and now about me and Bruno and what I've been through this past month.

"I-I don't want to love him but-" I shook my head, my stare falling down to look at my fingers as I nervously played with them.

"What did Bruno said about him coming back?" she I knew we went on a date yesterday and she was sure as I was, that one of the tops of our discussion would be him, Justin.

"He...he asked me if there was something going on between us..." I rolled my eyes, memories from last night flashing through my mind. Bruno is the jealous type and to say it was annoying would be an understatement but I can't ignore the fact that he was by my side all this time. Comforting me, making sure I wouldn't break down. He doesn't know about me going to therapy, hell no one does and I'd rather keep it that way, but he was there when I needed someone the most and that's why we ended up dating.

"And what did you say?"

"I deny everything of course. I can't tell him what have happened between me and Justin or else he will flipped"

She nodded taking down some notes. She rubbed her forehead taking off her glasses and staring deeply at me.

"Did you get any sleep last night? You seem tired." she asked.

"I could say the same" I chuckled. She indeed looked tired as well.

"No, John kept me up all night..." she whispered more to herself than me.

I giggled. "I really don't wanna know any more information" I smirked. John was her two years boyfriend and they were staying together for three months now.

She chuckled, blushing lightly before regaining her serious face again. "So what kept you awake? Did you take the pills?" she laid back on her chair and crossed her arms in front of her chest.

"I did but they don't seem to be working lately, especially now that Justin came back..." Now that Justin was back, it was hard for me to stay focus. He was the only thing I would think of before going to bed. He just wouldn't leave my mind. Telling me he broke up with Selena and then he comes back for me because he wants us to be together, What am I suppose to do?

"Have you ever considering of forgiving him?"

I thought about it for a moment. "I have already forgiven him from the moment I landed here a month ago, I just can't forget what I've been through..."

She nodded. "How does he seem? I mean, does he try to do anything now that he is back?"

"Besides trying to kiss me no, but it was really hard for me to stop him" I shrugged, closing my eyes and letting a sigh escape my lips. "I just...I really don't know what to do..."

"You should focus on other things" she suggested.

"Like what?"

"I don't know, any school activity, your birthday party in three weeks...anything" she exclaimed.