Kaylor- Sunshine ☀️

Chapter 17

"I'm in love with her"

The realisation took me by surprise, a blush burning on my cheeks, hear racing, my heart hammering away in my chest. A smile that couldn't be bigger exploding over my face as I laughed at myself at how long it took me to realise this. It's always been her. I've been in love with her since I locked eyes with her for the very first time, I fell deep into the depths of those deep green eyes. It's been her all along, through the months that I pushed the feelings away, through the nights where her smile would haunt my dreams in the most beautiful way possible it almost sent me insane,
through everything.

Should I tell her? I don't know if she feels the same....ill keep it to myself for now...

I felt lighter, standing up to join Karlie in the shower, I felt like I could do anything. I suddenly couldn't wait to tell my parents, I couldn't wait to tell the people around me who I was closest to. Breathing a sigh of happiness I shrugged out of my little shorts, my shirt following as I opened the shower door, eager to be with my girl again. Climbing into the shower I wrapped my arms around her from behind, feeling her relax against me as the hot water rained down on us gently. Turning around, her smile seemed to send me into a trance, unable to stop myself from contently staring into those green eyes. I leaned forward slowly, taking in this moment as I pressed my lips gently to hers. The kiss was filled with passion as we wrapped our limbs around each other, completely encaptured by one another. My lips tingled with adrenaline, my heart nearly exploding with love for this girl. Pulling back we leaned against each other's foreheads, out of breath. "what was that for?" She breathed against me, her smile mesmerising me.
I'm in love with you.
"You are my world Karlie" I said, deciding that this was the closest I could go without revealing the depth of my feelings. A blush sprang up to her cheeks, looking down a smile of pure sunshine filled her lips.
"You are my world, Taylor" she whispered back intimately, closing the space between our lips.
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Closing the door I walked back to the kitchen, Karlie had gone out to apparently "prepare some stuff for our afternoon". Which gave me time to call my parents, perhaps Karlie was also giving me space to call them. As it was mid day, my mum would be home, my brother and dad at work and college. Perfect. It would be easier to tell her anyway, she would never judge me.
Okay Taylor, you can do this, pick up the phone. I psyched myself up, pulling my iPhone out of my back pocket.
"Hi honey!" My mum enthusiastically answered the phone, making me smile. "Hey mum, how are you going?" I ask her, not wanting to immediately drop it on her. "What's wrong baby? I can hear it in your voice, you need to talk to me about something don't you" she replied back immediately with a knowing voice. How does she know everything?
"You know me too well" I said with a small giggle, becoming nervous to get the words out.
"Is everything okay?" She said slowly, trying to analyse my voice.
"Yeah, everything is okay, actually everything is better than okay....I've um....I've never been this happy in my life" I breathed, trying to set the groundwork for what I was about to tell her.
"Mum I'm uh...I'm moving to New York next week, I just got the call last night saying that the apartment I was looking at had been approved for my sale, I didn't want to tell you until I knew for sure" I rushed out breathlessly.
"Oh honey! That's amazing, and this is the right thing for you? I trust your decisions" she asks.
"Yes, without a doubt this is absolutely what I need to do for me" I replied back strongly, my smile visible in my voice.
"Okay well, as much as I'll miss seeing you as often, I'm so happy that your happy about this, but can I ask Taylor....what brought this on?" She asks hesitantly.
My heart rate speeds up and my mouth goes slightly dry, I don't even know why I was this nervous suddenly.  "Well uh...for a while now I've felt like Los Angeles isn't my home anymore, I need to be somewhere else, I need to change my life and New York is perfect for that. But that leads me to the other reason, the other thing I had to tell you" I said nervously, my hands going clammy against the phone. Closing my eyes briefly I remembered karlies smile, her warm green eyes, the feeling I get when I'm with her, the memories sending a surge of love and confidence through me.
"I'm dating someone, it's serious and I've never felt this way." I say strongly, not letting her respond I took a deep breath and kept talking.
"I'm dating Karlie Kloss" I breathed.
After a few seconds of shocked silence she responds.
"Oh baby, I am so incredibly happy for you!!" She exclaims enthusiastically.
"Really?" I say with a laugh, expecting her to be more shocked, "why aren't you acting surprised?" I ask curiously, deliriously happy that I had told her.
"I don't know I just sort of always had this gut feeling, you talked about her so much on the phone and whenever we caught up it was Karlie this Karlie that, your eyes were full of light when you talked about her" she explains, a smile present in her voice.
" I wasn't sure but I just had a feeling, you changed when you met her, it was light someone had shone a light into your life and I am so happy that you two are together baby" she continues, making my eyes begin to water with happiness.
"She is like a light in my life mum, she's sunshine" I say shyly, blushing.
"Tell me about her" she says and I can't keep the smile off my face.
"She's so warm she's like a magnetic force of happiness, she's so passionate you know? She's so passionate about what she loves and what She believes in and she's beautiful and kind and so selfless I wonder if I deserve her. She's like a literal giraffe" I say with a giggle. "She's always laying on top of me like a koala bear or a sloth and doesn't realise how tall she is, she's happy when she wakes up, she goes to the gym every single day and makes the most amazing vegetable curry, she's beautiful in a way that I didn't know possible, she's got these eyes, these green eyes they look like liquid gold, but like bright shiny emeralds, she's perfect mum, she's my future" I finish on a whisper, becoming rather emotional with how much I loved this girl.
After a minute of silence she speaks
"Your in love with her aren't you?" She says with a knowing voice.
"Yes" I say strongly.
"It's different this time isn't it?" She says, the same tone in her voice.
"Yeah, it's so much different to anything I've ever had with anyone" I confess to her, blushing at what I was about to confess"
"She's the one mum"
"I know baby" she says, her voice full of love.
"How do you know?" I ask, confused as to what she meant.
"falling in love with your best friend is the most beautiful thing in the world Taylor, many years ago I had a best friend that I felt different with, I felt like I could do anything with him by my side. I love your father as much today as I did the day I met him"
Wiping away a happy tear I breathed a sigh of relief, "I'm so glad you know and your happy for me".
"I can't wait to meet her baby" she sighs happily, "yeah me too mum" I reply, a pang of worry in the back of my mind.
What if meeting my parents is too painful for Karlie considering her own past....
No Taylor don't think about that now just take things as they come I remind myself. A text from Karlie rang through on my phone, minimising my mums call to check the phone
Be home in 20 mins babe, be ready to go, dress casual xx
I smiled at her cryptic text, wondering what she could be up to.
"Sorry mum I gotta go, Karlies taking me out to some mystery place for our last day in LA before she goes back tomorrow morning" I sigh, beginning to feel sad about her leaving. It's just one week I remind myself.
"Okay baby have a good afternoon and tell Karlie I can't wait to meet her!" She replys happily, unaware of the internal battle I'm facing thinking about Karlie leaving and worrying about how she feels about my parents and most of worrying about what I realised more than anything.
Im completely and utterly in love with her.
But do I tell her? Do I wait? Is it too soon? I doubt she would feel the same it's always the same..I fall hard and it's never the right way.
But it's different with Karlie....
I remind myself once more. I slump up to my room, the excitement of my mysterious afternoon with Karlie being overshadowed by my worries.
What if she forgets about me and realised she doesn't want me in that week? Okay it's just a week Taylor calm down...yeah but a lot can happen in a week let this week alone prove that.
Stopping my endless racing thoughts I took a deep breath, focusing on getting ready for this afternoon. Reminding myself to enjoy the time I had left before everything changed.
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"Where are we going babe?" I ask yet again, the wind Blowing through my hair from the open car window, my eyes blocked by a dark blindfold.
Karlie's giggle sounds from the drivers seat, "Mmmmm see I could tell you but where's the fun in that?" She teases. "God kloss your lucky your hot you know that" I state grumpily, my worries from earlier still swirling around in my head. "I know" she giggles back, seemingly finding my mood amusing.
About half an hour later I find myself being guided through trees, the soft leaves trailing across my arms, the smell of the sea close by. "Nearly there!!" She says with an enthusiastic voice like a small child at Christmas. I hear the padding of the security guard behind us stopping, leaving us to walk a further five minutes until suddenly my feet aren't crunching leaves anymore but are padding on a soft surface, the sea breeze stronger than ever. "Here we are" she whispers softly, pulling my blindfold off to reveal one of the most beautiful things I've ever seen. The clearing at the top of the clifftop is covered in soft green grass, the edge a good 100 metres from where we stood, the clear blue water shining, reflecting up at us. The ground was covered in a soft picnic blanket, with an assortment of our favourite foods for lunch. Lemon herb roast chicken for me, vegetable couscous, fresh Spring vegetables, cheese, an array of salads and a large bottle of champagne sitting on ice. I stopped to take in my surroundings once more, too blown away to speak just yet. It was so silent, there was nobody but us, with security a good 5 minutes distance away we were perfectly alone. "Karlie" I croak, getting slightly emotional, "this is perfect, I can't believe you would do this for me" I say, falling in love with her even more.
"Taylor do you not understand the depth of my feelings for you" she says softly, holding my hand and pulling me to sit with her.
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Laying back on karlies chest I sigh contently, savouring this moment in my mind forever. "Karlie this was perfect, the food, the view, the privacy. Thank you" I said gently, listening to her heartbeat as I lay against her.
I'm in love with you
"Aw that's okay Taylor, I wanted to have a special afternoon with you, this week has been without s doubt the best week of my life, but really if I'm being honest, it's been the best few months of my life, having you in it" she says, her heartbeat suddenly speeding up to thud loudly in my ear.
"I guess Taylor I just uh..I need to tell you how much you mean to me, how much I care about you"
But it will never be as much as I feel for you the thought making me sad.
She could never possibly be in love with me.
"Taylor you are my world, you are so warm and kind and beautiful and you make me laugh, you make me cry, you make me feel so many levels of passionate emotions I didn't even know I had within me" she almost whispers, her heartbeat speeding up to its peak. What is she so nervous about?
"I guess Taylor what I'm trying to say is..." She trails off.
"Yeah karls?"
"Taylor I...I'm..I'm in l"
The shrill tone of my phone interupts her sentence, looking down at my phone to see Austin was calling me. Ignoring the call I grumble at him internally for ruining the moment.
Was she going to say? Was she going to.... Wait what.
"Sorry babe what were you going to say?" I ask gently, desperately hoping I was right. Her cheeks are red, heartbeat still erratic, "oh nothing it's not important" she says with her signature sunshine smile but a deeper tone of emotion in her eyes. "No karls please tell me, what were you saying" I beg her.
"Nothing nothing, let's pop the champagne, I toast this bottle to you babe" she says.
I guess I was imagining it....
The cork flies into the air as the bottle makes a large popping sound, the pale golden liquid spilling into the tall glasses. She hands me a glass, holds hers up in the air and takes me hand with her free arm.
"Here's to us baby" she whispers, clinking out glasses together and taking a sip. Moving in she kisses me ever so gently, it's a kiss so full of passion so full of love that I wonder if my imagination wasn't so wild.
I'm in love with you.
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Still panting slightly, we hold each other close, our bare forms moulding to each other under the blankets.
Coming down my our high I begin to feel emotional again.
"I'm going to miss you so much babe" I whisper into her chest.
"Me too, but it's only one week baby we can do it, I'll call you and FaceTime you everyday and then after that week our summer really starts" she reminds me gently, which calms me down slightly but doesn't mask the pang of sadness I feel at being away from this girl for a full week.
"Just kiss me" I request like a child.
Her lips find mine gently kissing away my sadness, filling me with warmth.
I love you.
"You are my sunshine" I say instead, kissing her chest as we curl up together. Sleep finding us rather quickly. My last thoughts of her smile and wondering what she could have possible been about to say today.
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"I'm sorry I can't come with you, trust me it's better this way, you don't want to be caught in a media stampede" I say quietly. Holding my cardigan close around me I looked down, trying not to get emotional, feeling the vulnerability of the early morning cold as Karlie prepared to leave. "Baby don't be upset, please don't be, it's only a week" she says gently, stoking my face before pulling me into her, holding me tightly and kissing my head as a sob choked out of my mouth in a strangled voice.
After a few minutes of holding each other tightly she pulls away to lean down and kiss my lips with such gentle passion that I feel like maybe I'm not crazy, maybe she does feel the same.
We stare heavily into each other's eyes, hers now shining with tears, my mind racing, trying to take in her smell, her touch.
Just say it Taylor. Just do it.
"Karlie" I whisper
"Yeah" she whispers back
I love you
"I uh...I..I'm going to miss you so much" I stammer.
Damn you swift, you coward.
"I'm going to miss you too baby, but I'll call you everyday, it's only a week, then the rest of our lives start" she whispers intimately, making my heartbeat pound out of my chest.
The sound of the car pulling up signals Karlie needs to leave, I cling onto her tighter as I press my lips desperately against hers.
After a few moments she kisses my forehead tenderly, whispering, "I'll see you soon my love" with a sad smile before walking away, the car reversing out of the driveway.
Tears fell freely from my eyes, walking back into the house I slumped down on the lounge crying.
The house without my sunshine only felt like a house, not a home.
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About 45 minutes passes as I wallow on the lounge, going through pictures of Karlie on my phone trying to remind myself that it was only a week.
I felt so indescribably empty without her, I needed her, her warmth, her musky vanilla scent enveloping me.
I'm so in love with her.
Standing up abruptly, I picked up my phone.
Fuck it. Take a chance swift.
"Jack, can you please bring a car around the front in 10 minutes, I need to go to the airport. As quickly as possible."
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Pulling my hood tighter over my head I run through the unusually deserted departures area.
Beginning to cry again, I try calling her once more, no answer.
She can't have left already, I can't be too late. Please don't let me be too late.
Pulling her flight details up on my phone I spot the gate she is intended to be at, running to there, hoping nobody realises it's Taylor Swift running through the airport at 6am wearing ugg boots and a fluffy hoodie.
Where are you Karlie? I'm beginning to feel defeated, tears streaming down my face when I hear it.
"Taylor?" Her voice makes my soul reawaken, wiping my cheeks quickly I run to the sound, spotting her tall form about to board her flight.
Now sprinting to her I ran into her arms, nearly causing her to tumble as she walked me back around the boarding lounge which was deserted, free of anyone within miles.
"Taylor what are you doing here baby?" She asks shocked.
I take a deep breath.
Come on swift, you can do this.
"Karlie I'm in love with you, i couldn't let you go without telling you".
Her eyes light up in surprise, tears forming in them as she laughs a shocked laugh.
"Taylor" she chokes out.
"It's okay I understand if you don't feel the same way I just needed you to k..." My words are cut off by her lips on mine, desperately clinging to me before pulling away and in the smallest voice she responds.
"Taylor, I'm in love with you too, I have been since the very first day"
The world seems to slow down around me as she moves in once more to kiss me, this kiss is like our first, so delicate, so full of passion. But it is so charged with love that it sends my head spinning.
She loves me too.
"Final call for flight 198913 to New York" the computerised voice calls out.
"Baby I gotta go" she says pulling away and holding my hand.
"I love you, so so much" I say, wiping away another tear as she looks at me with the most tender, loving gaze I have ever seen.

"I love you too, always have, always will"

A/N: SORRY FOR THE LATE UPDATE!!!!! I had my 1989 show and things have been crazy!! Hopefully you enjoy this update, it's longer than usual. As always comment your feedback and thoughts I love to hear it.
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