"I will never be able to tell you this to your face without becoming tongue tied. I write a little more every day because everything reminds me of you.
I love all those stupid little lines on your face when you smile as big as you can. I love your smile and how all your teeth show and how you always bite your lip afterwards. I love that stupid slit in your eyebrow. I love your iced gem hair. I love your strange elbow. I love you eyes and how they just shine all the time. I love how your massive hands used to fit perfectly with mine. I love your freckles. I love how you play with your stupidly hot lip piercing. I love how you sent me a picture of your stupid boxers that said "don't talk with your mouth full". I love your ring and how you always take it off and spin it. I love how you always used to send cheesy songs to me. I love how you used to call me beautiful. I love your stupid joker impressions. I love all your stories. I love how when you cuddle me your hand lands on my hip. I love how I could have told you anything. I love your fucking hot snap backs. I love how much you care. I love that you laugh at little things and then pull this silly face afterwards where you pull your lips into your mouth and smile and look around. I love your terrible moustache. I love how you're always cold because it gave me more of a reason to hug you. I love the smell of your stupid hoodies when we used to hug. I love how you would have to lean down to rest your head on my shoulder. I love your huge feet. I love your tattoos. I love how you used to let me fall asleep on the phone to you. I love how you would call me whenever I was alone. I love how you told your sister about me. I love the way you stand. I love how you wear a million hoodies. I love how you used to pull me as close as I could get.
I love everything about you. I love that you exist. I love you and that wont be changing for a long time.
There are nights when I think about you and I cry so hard that my body aches and I shake and I have to put my head in my pillows so no one hears me. You truly broke me but I'm still here.
I love you.
I will be here if you want someone to sit up all night with you just so you know you're not alone. My heart has never felt like this before. The sad part is you can push me away and hurt me all you want and I will still be here waiting for you. I wish I could erase every message and delete everything that we had together but I can't. I cling to everything that was in hopes that it will be again. It is so easy for me to love you that it frightens me. I've never wanted anything so much as I want to hold you every waking minute. And every night while I sleep, the question has stopped being "how do I love you?" And has become "how do I stop?"
But I don't want to stop because as long as I love you I can see hope in the world. I can see the good in everything and everyone. I don't want that part of me to go again. You've given me so much without even realizing. I hate waiting but if waiting means being able to be with you then I'll wait as long as it takes.
But I know no matter what I say nothing will change. I'm sorry for wasting your time. Goodbye."
Okay so this is a paragraph that I wrote to my ex a while ago. I just thought it might be good for an imagine...
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~Maddy
