**Ashton's P.O.V**
('she' is you, just to make that clear so whilst your reading it in your head or imagining it or whatever just know its you... OK... I'll let you read it now :D)
I squeezed her hands in mine and she squeezed back, smiling at me sadly. "You're gonna be okay," she whispered. I looked down at her all too familiar hospital sheets to hide the fact that I was tearing up - again.
"I know you'll be okay," she repeated, letting go of my hands and cupping my face, forcing me to look at her. She rested her forehead against mine and I smiled despite myself crying.
"I love you," I sighed.
She smiled, scooting over and patting the spot next to her in bed. I crawled next to her, hugging her tightly against my chest. I quickly wiped a tear from my cheek. How am I not be out of tears yet?
"Ashton?" she whispered.
"Yeah?" I said, clearing my throat to hide the fact that I was crying.
"Promise me you'll be okay," she begged.
"How can I promise that?" I said with a light chuckle.
"Just promise me you won't, you know, feel weird about moving on," she explained, looking up at me hopefully. I sighed, not wanting to tell her that honestly I didn't know if I'd be able to move on without thinking of her.
"Okay," I sighed.
"I can tell you're lying," she pointed out, chuckling weakly.
"I promise that after some time, maybe, I will date another person," I muttered, unable to look at her for fear of her seeing the tears welling in my eyes again.
"You'll love someone else, Ash, don't worry," she stated, smiling confidently. "And she's gonna be beautiful and funny and smart and have great taste in music," she listed, smiling at me. I'm going to miss this smile.
"She won't be you," I pointed out hopelessly.
"She'll be better than me! I bet she'll be great at video games even though I'm a pro already." She chuckled, "a really good cook, and maybe she'll even like Vegemite!" She added, making me laugh as I remembered the time I made her try Vegemite and she nearly puked.
She smiled, no doubt proud that she had gotten me to laugh today, which is something only she can do, only her perfect self and her beautiful personality can make me smile. "She sounds alright," I joked.
"So promise me you won't feel bad moving on, alright?" She asked, looking at me seriously.
"I'm going to be truthful, you're the person I'm always going to love and its going to be hard moving on and I don't even think I will be able to, but if it makes you happy then maybe I might but just know I will always love you more." I said staring at her just remembering all the amazing dates we've had and all the cute good times we've had together like the times we would cuddle up on the sofa and watch movies and out heated make-out sessions, i chuckled a little knowing how easily she could turn me on.
"But you'll always be my first love." I added, "and you'll always be my last," she replied, biting her lip as her eyes filled with tears. I kissed her forehead, hugging her against my chest in silence.
"Mr. Irwin?" A low voice called from the door, "It's time to go." I sighed and nodded to the nurse, who left us alone to say goodbye.
"Well, just don't forget me and I'll see you in about 70 years." She chuckled trying to enlighten the mood, sending me a wide grin.
"I'll always love you," I said. I let the tears fall entirely now, knowing it was no use trying to hold them back.
"Hey, Ashton," she whispered. I looked into her bright, gorgeous eyes and waited for her to continue. "You're gonna live an amazing life. You've already saved so many lives, and you're gonna save so many more. You know I wouldn't have made it this far without you." I nodded, trying to believe what she were saying.
"So don't stop smiling, baby," she told me, "because I swear your smile can change the world. It always makes my day and so many others."
I let out a watery laugh and smiled at her, which made her smile, too.
She kissed my cheek and I got up, knowing she was tired and I needed to go. I headed for the door and she waved one last time smiling as if everything was okay. I took a mental picture, knowing it was the last time I'd see her smile "Goodnight beautiful." I whispered to myself and turned away as she laid down to sleep for the last time.
