Beautiful Disaster (EDITING!!)

Chapter 29: What My Life has Turned Into

PIC OF WHAT KATE LOOKS LIKE ON THE BOAT!! SONG IS THE SONG KATE'S HEARS IN HER HEAD

2 months later. 

Kate's POV< 

Hello, Kate here. How are you? It's been at least 2 months since I've spoken to you last. Not much has happened. I mostly stay up in my room, I don't want to talk to anyone. It's to hard, it hurts to much to try. 

Right now, I'm laying on my bed thinking about the fact that Avery's dad and mom are downstairs planning out his funeral. Just thinking about him makes my heart ache with a pain that no vampire should ever feel. 

Lex stayed here. He stayed with me, he sleeps in the extra bed that Mason put in my room, he's a good friend. Nothing could prepared me for what happened. I should tell you that if not for my.....certain....situation right now I would have already killed myself. I'm not proud of it, but it's true. 

I just don't want to be here anymore. I heard over the news that someone set fire to my house. My family was in it. My dad's in a coma, my mom's dead, our house keepers are dead, my dog is dead. They don't even think my dad is going to make it. So I count him as dead. Everyone I truly loved is dead. 

Lex walked through the door rubbing his face, when he saw that I was awake, he tried a smile and said "Hey sweetie, how you doing?" 

I didn't answer him, I only turned away and starred out the window. 

"Ok, hey, well.." He sat at the edge of my bed. "Avery's mom and dad want to talk to you, do you think you'll be able to get dressed and go down stares?" He had a sort of pleading look on his face. 

He hated seeing me like this, I knew that, but I can't help what I going on inside my head. Everything was screaming, he just couldn't hear it. For Lex I guess I could go, he was being really nice to me and I wanted to make him less worried. 

"Okay," Was all I said before walking into the closet and shutting the door. 

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Emerging from the closet in a white sweater, blue skinny jeans, and black boots, I let my hair hang loose and my makeup that was stuck on my face stay there. Lex had also changed clothes, and help me out the door. 

When we entered the living room Avery's mother: Vanessa was sitting there wearing, a gray business dress, with black stilettos, and a fancy hand bag, and of course her phone. Avery's dad: Luke was standing up leaning against the wall. He wasn't wearing a leather jacket so it must be serious. He had on khaki pants, with black tenners, and a dark blue denim shirt. 

He saw me and walked quickly towards me, engulfing me in a hug. I could feel the tears coming towards my eye lids. He smoothed my hair over and kissed my head, whispering "I'm so sorry Kate." 

I could hear the pain in his voice, the sadness that had lurked into his normally happy Scottish voice. "I know," Was all I said letting him go and turning towards everyone who was left of our group. We had lost Ethan, Zayn, Avery and Meggie. Well Meggie was healing right now but she was seriously hurt. 

I looked at Avery mom who's ice glare had melted slightly. She got up from the chair and actually came over to me and hugged me. And not like the choking hug that you give someone you hate, the one where you had just lost someone close to you, and you need a confident. 

"Kate, I'm sorry I truly am. I never wanted this to happen." There it was the cold edge in her voice. I could see straight through her. Her sympathy act. 

"Really, because last time I saw you, you tried to kill me. And well I guess you did, but you didn't expect London to be a vampire so you never though that I would come back. Well guess what I did." That's what I wanted to say.