All I Need: A Racetrack Higgins Fanfiction

Chapter 12: The Talk.

I don't know how long I've been crying. The world just slipped away from me. The worst part was, I didn't even know why I was crying. I had Max. I was happy with Max, wasn't I?

I was snapped out of my thought when I heard a voice. "Sam?" I heard Jack ask.

I wipe my eyes and look up to see Jack just getting to the top of the ladder. "Hey Jack. I was just leaving." I say standing up.

"You don't have to go so soon," he stops me. "Why were you crying?"

I sit back down. "I wasn't crying," I mumble.

"Ok. Then why were your eyes sweating?" Jack asks with a smirk.

I sigh and look up at him. "Have you ever loved someone so much, but feel like you will never be able to tell them?"

"Do you remember the whole strike thing and Katherine?" Jack says sarcastically. His face softens when he sees tears filling my eyes. "Hey," he says sitting down. "It's ok, Sam. Everyone feels like that."

I wipe a tear from my cheek. "But, what if it's breaking your heart. What if you want to tell this guy more than anything, but can't?"

"What's holding you back?"

I look up at him. "I-I never said it was me who felt like that."

"It's not that hard to tell. You're crying on the roof and talking about a pretty specific situation. It's either you or your brother."

"Ross! Shoot!" I yell as I start to stand up.

"Wait, what's wrong with Ross?" Jack asks still sitting.

"I left him with Davey so I could...do something," I say as I start looking around for my hat, that I threw off while I was crying.

"Do what?" Jack says standing up, suddenly interested.

"Nothing important," I reply.

"That was the worst lie I've ever heard. Worse than Race's. And Race tells a lot of bad lies."

I suddenly freeze. I feel my chest tighten up as tears fill my eyes.

"Sam? You ok?" Jack says placing a hand on my shoulder.

I snap out of it. "Um...yeah. I'm fine," I say as I pick up my hat.

"Do you want to-"

"No," I say cutting him off. "I'm fine. I just need to go find Ross. He's probably driving Davey crazy." I start to climb down the ladder before Jack's voice stops me.

"You know that we're a family right? All of the boys, you and Ross. We have each others backs."

I stop for a second and close my eyes, forcing myself to push away my emotions. "Thanks Jack."

"Sam don't-"

I don't hear the end of his sentence, I'm already back on the ground. I start walking, only slightly looking for Davey, Les, and Ross. But, I'm thinking more than looking.

"I can't stay in Manhattan anymore," I whisper to myself. "Ross an I have to leave."