Imperfect Me. (ON HOLD)

Chapter 14

JAYDEN:

My heart pumps twice its normal rate and I feel my knuckles whiten at how tight I am clutching the steering wheel. I don't want to think about anything because the only thing in my mind is the 'incident'. Really the term 'incident' is useless for this particular situation it doesn't stress how horrendous it really was;

Just a little while longer and I'll be there.
Finally! I feel a little better knowing that I'm not too far from the destination.
I'm fed up of this ride, I take a rough right turn pulling me off the high way into the path almost unseen by the undergrowth taking over the path that is now barely wide enough for two cars.

I take an other rough turn parking the car on the little spot I made a few years back. I get out the car, lock it and fit the key into my jean pocket. Without another thought, I run.

The breeze hits my arms, face and hands as my feet pound against the small muddy path. The green surrounding me calms me by a fraction; I push myself to run a little harder... I'm almost there.
The dark trees slowly fade and soon I'm walking over soft grass towards the abandoned train tracks.
I reach the large oak tree and begin climbing up its twisted limbs. Once above the tree which I see as a comfort, I jump off the branch and land hard on the steel container coloured by my graffiti. I lie on the container hearing only the rustling leaves in the wind and my heart as it returns to its normal beat.

No noise, no drama, no fake, no hiding. Just me and this peaceful sanctuary. I finally allow my memory to unfold the events allowing myself the pain and feelings that arise whenever this runs through my mind. Freely able to scream, or cry or laugh or release anger without needing to keep it tucked away or feeling the fear of being an outcast... More than I already am.

Half an hour later the loud beeping of my phone pulls me out of a dreamless sleep. I'm much calmer now and finally have managed to feel somewhat normal now that those bottled feelings are out here.

With a sigh I pull the phone out of my back pocket ready to decline the call but Jonghyun's name stops me. Why would he of all people call me today when he knows that this is the one day I hate socialising. The one day I like to be alone.

I answer the phone feeling unease spread through my limbs, it won't have happened again right?
With one deep breath I accept the call.

"Jonghyun." I say by way of greeting,
"Jayden... you need to come over here." I can feel the strained tone which just adds to initial feeling of unease.

"It's not...-"
"No." He replies cutting me off from calling out her name, he knows how much I can't bear the thought of her being hurt again.

"Go on." I ask
Jonghyun hesitates for a moment yelling a command to someone else.

"It's Jade, I don't--why--- be here. "
The lack of signal starts to kick in making it difficult to understand what Jonghyun is saying.

"I can't hear!" I yell
"I don't have time, I'll text." I Manage I make out what he is saying,
Just before the call ends a small mournful whimper sounds,

My blood turns cold as it sets off a memory but before I can dwell on it Jonghyun's text breaks the thought train from making any progress.

The address of an all too familiar hospital is sent,
it'll take me half an hour to get there if I follow the speed limit.
As if I actually will.

I jump off the container and sprint back towards my car on nothing but adrenalin. Endless thoughts run through my mind as to what could possibly have happened.

I hop into the car and speed towards the hospital. Pulling down the windows to allow the loud wind to prevent me from going crazy with my assumptions.