Imperfect Me. (ON HOLD)

Chapter 41

A/N:

I'm putting this chapter up as tribute for Kim Jong hyun... the beautiful soul who inspired the Jonghyun you guys were able to meet here.
It pains me to have to say that he is no longer here in the world with us despite being only 28... I just want you guys to know that if you guys ever feel lonely or depressed you can come to me, regardless of whether I know you or not.

If someone hasn't told you already-
you are beautiful.
You are loved.
You're stronger than you think you are. 
I am glad you're alive.  

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JAYDEN:

I watch her through the small gap between the oak.

"Jay Jay?!" she calls out laughing as she does, her hazel eyes sparkling as she smiles- her eyes sweeping the room in search of me.  I supress the laugh bubbling at the back of my throat not wanting to give my place away.

Just as I find myself unable to hold in the laugh anymore a loud smash sounds downstairs. Loud angry stamps making its way up towards us, I feel my heart start to race as the large figure crashes into the room.

Her breath hitches; I watch the colour drain from her tanned face as she turns to face the figure. I close my eyes ... maybe I'm just imagining all of this.

The loud crashing of the dresser table glass forces my eyes open. The large coat he's wearing blocks my view of her but its only momentary.

I see the figures face... it couldn't be?! I find my face now mirroring hers as I take his appearance in. It is then that her eyes latch onto me. Her eyes now shining with tears, her face contorted in pain as he grips her arm.

I don't know what to do!

This needs to stop. I need to save her! I said I was her knight... I said I wouldn't ever let her get hurt and yet here I sit watching her cry in pain. Her eyes find me once again and despite the beaten state she is in, she smiles.

She fucking smiled?!

Her eyes full of love but in there I see pain, I see guilt. She doesn't want me to come... she wants me to stay here; I see her flinch once again as he whispers something- the blood rushing in my ears blocking out his words.

I see the bloody glass in his hand.  He wouldn't... he couldn't hurt an angel.

Get up and save her you idiot I scream at myself but I can't, my limbs feel like they're full of lead. I can't save her.

I sit up my heart racing, head pounding...

I was asleep. 'You are awake. You're awake now- everything is okay.' I tell myself.

I check the time on my phone, still feeling slight unease at the dream.

4:00

I need to be a little calmer before I go check up on her. She must be finishing her night shift soon and knowing her she'll get worried if I turn up looking so panicked.

She's a strong woman. I remind myself knowing that she's very good at handling herself but I can't help but worry. I guess that's what happens when you love someone.

I glance around taking in my surroundings and find myself sat up beside a sleeping Jade. Her arm covering her eyes, sprawled out on the duvet - her left leg over my right. She mumbles something in her sleep before shifting so that she's lying on her side facing me.