Life and Pregnancy

Chapter 3- Loner

Laya

I walk in the door for it to smell like straight weed and alcohol. I'm not alarmed,this is very normal. I follow the smell and go downstairs. All I see is niggas and bitches walking around smoking,talking,laughing and doing whatever else. "Mama?" I try and tell over the talking. I do an over look of the room and see if I can find her. I push past people and try and look for her. I'm not really tall I'm about 5'2.

I spot her sitting on some mans lap drinking and talking. She makes me sick. She smiling with her dirty yellow teeth. I walk up to her and she instantly frowns. "This is my annoying daughter." She tells the man who's lap she's sitting on. He nods his head. I just look at him. She throws her card at my face. "The hell you just standing the looking like a dumb ass for? Go to the motherfuckin grocery store and  buy the damn food! It ain't gon walk to the gotdamn refrigerator!" She yells. I pick it up. "You ain't gotta throw it at me like you crazy, you just drunk any way,irritating ass hoe." I mumble. She gets up fast. "The fuck you just say to me?"she asks as she grabs my chin with her sharp nails. Tears slowly run down my face. I run out of there and up the stairs. I got to my room and just sit on my bed. She may irritate me but I still love her.

Ever since my dad left her when I was 5 she turns into an alcoholic. So she just takes it out on me. Me and my mom had a good relationship then. You would think I'm used to it,but I'm really not.

The door opening interrupts my thoughts. I look up and see a tall man with a blunt in his mouth. He slowly walks over to me. I sit still in fear. He touches my cheek then my shoulder,he then traces his fingers to my chest then my stomach. He look about in his 30s. I grab his wrist. "What are you doing?" I ask out of fear. He snatches my hand away then roughly lays me down. He tries to take off my shirt. "No please! Stop!" I tell trying to stop him, he's too strong.

He covers my mouth then tries to unzip my pants. I try and scream through his hand over my mouth. I reach my foot up and kick him in his face. He grunts then holds his eye. I get up then grab my lamp and bust him in his head. He falls back grunting. My brother runs in here with my moms gun then shoots him in his neck. His body slumps over my bed.

My brother walks over to me then hugs my while I breath heavily while my face is red. "What happened?" He asked then pulls away. "He tried to rape me but I got away." I say. He looks surprised then pulls his phone out his pocket then calls someone. I start walking to the door. "Where you going?" He asks.
"mom threw me her card to go to the store and my groceries." I say sounding sad. "Here, I'll walk you out the door." He says.

I walk outside then start walking to the store. We basically live in the hood but everybody knows me. Boys are constantly trying to hit on me but it doesn't work.

It's not a far walk. Just 5 minutes. I walk in the store then proceed to buy groceries.

I walk up to the cash register with a buggy full of food. I ring up the stuff then walk out. I pull out my phone and to tell Julian to come outside and help my put the groceries up.

I walk in the house with all the stuff. "I'll put them up for you." Julian says. "Thanks." I say. I walk up to my room and close and Lock the door. I go in my bathroom to take a shower. My mom made sure when she bought the house that I had my own bathroom,she didn't wanna share shit with me unsurprisingly.

I get out the shower with the towel wrapped around me. I go sit on my bed then begin to dry off. My phone starts ringing. It's Marco FaceTimeing me. I answer it. "Wassup beautiful?" He says making my face turn red. "Nothin,just got out the shower why wassup?" I ask. "Nothing I just wanted to talk to you." He says. I don't say anything. "So just out the shower huh?" He asks. I nod. "You tryna show me something?" He asks. I laugh then shake my head. "No,what I look like showing you my body parts,I ain't got time to be on an exposing page." I say. He chuckles. "I would never do that to you." He says. I put the phone down then dry off.

I put the towel back on then lay down on my back. "Laya?" He asks. Oh shit i forgot he was on there. I pick the phone up. "Yea?" I ask. "You forgot about a nigga?" He asks. I laugh. "How could I forget about you?" I say. He laughs. It gets silent. "I like your cleavage." He says. I start laughing. "Who the fuck says that?" I say. "Obviously someone who likes your cleavage,take the damn compliment." He says. I laugh. "Do you trust me."he asks. "Yea." I answer. "Show me something." He says. I take a deep breath then think of the worst that could happen. I guess it wouldn't hurt anything. "Put the phone up so I know you ain't holding it." I demand. He does as told. I lift down the towel then show him my breasts. "Damn girl." He says. I put the towel back up. "I low key just got hard as fuck." He says. I laugh. "Yea,I'll call you tomorrow." I say. "Ok bye baby love you." He says. "Mhmm." I say then hang up.

That whole situation felt weird. I walk to the dresser then put on my underwear one of my over sized tees and some basketball shorts. I put my curly hair in a pony tail. I make sure the door is locked then turnoff my light then lay down. Thank God I don't have school tomorrow.

I wake up then look at my phone. "Oh shit." I mumble. I see a missed call from my auntie,I was supposed to babysit her kids 20 minutes ago. I get up then put on some dark blue jeans and a white tank top. I then put on a black polo shirt with a purple horse. I put on my shoes then walk to the bathroom. I brush my hair and where it down then brush my teeth. I grab a plastic cup then put water in it. I grab my pill bottle then teams two. I have a slight bipolar disorder.

I walk out my room then to my brothers room. I knock on his door. He opens it. " I was waiting on you to get up,yo door was locked smartness." He says. I roll my eyes. "Hurry up and take me I'm already late." I say.

We pull up to my aunties house. I walk up to the door then knock on it. She opens it looking mad. "I'm so sorry I overslept." I say. She sighs. "Yea ok, KK sleep and Amari is playing with his toys in his room, they already ate." She says then walks out. "Ok thanks,bye have a good day." I say. She doesn't say anything.

I babysit her kids on Mondays Wednesday's Friday's and sometime Saturday's. She's pays me 10 dollars an hour,it's basically a real job. She works 8 hours on Saturdays and on week days 6 hours. When I get home from school on weekdays I watch them for 4 hours.

Amari walks up to me. "Hey Laya." He says. He's 9. "Wassup lil man,how's football?" I ask. "It's good, these two girls was tryna dat me and I said yes to both." He says smiling. I laugh a little. "Your only supposed to have 1." I say. "So." He says then walks away. I laugh, kids say the damnest things.

It's 4:26. I told Marco that I would go to the mall with him at 5. I hear keys in the door. My auntie walks in. "How were they?" She asks. "They were good, KK threw up though, I knew she was sick when I felt her forehead." I say. "Aww, thanks girly." She says then hands me an 100$ bill. She didn't have 20 last week. "Thank you." I say "No problem." She says. I look out the window then see my brother pull up."Aight auntie Michelle I'll see you later."I say. "Bye baby,tell yo big head brother I said hey." She says. "Ok bye bye." I say then walk out her house.

It's raining outside, I get in the car. "She said hey with yo big head ass." I say exaggerating. "She can't talk bout nobody head,her head shaped like a egg." He says. I start dying laughing. "You ain't have to talk shit like that nights damn." I say,it's so funny cause it's true.

"Can you take me to the mall?" I ask. He doesn't know about Marco,I don't plan on him finding out either. "Sure,what time you want me to pick you up?" He asks. "My friend can just drop me off." I say. He nods his head.

We pull up to the mall and park in front of JcPenny's. I text Marco and tell him to meet me in the food court. He replys ok and that he's already here. I get out. Then walk in,I hope he don't try shit wit his dumbass, I love him but he's a dumbass. I'm not necessarily in love with him,I just love him as a friend. I don't know about him, I'm scared to ask.