Life and Pregnancy

Chapter 10- You's Out!

If you never got to see her, Laya is in the media

Laya

It's 2:00 in the fuckin morning and I can't sleep. I don't even know why,I'm tired but I can't sleep. It's like my stomach is bothering me in a way I can't explain. I got school tomorrow I'm Finna be sleepy as fuck in class. I'm really trying to decide if I should go or not.

Fuck it I'll just take a Benadryl so I can try and go to sleep. I open the drawer in my nightstand to look for one. I cannot find one. I'm just bout to suffer then. I pick up my phone, unlock then start going on social media. I don't even get on like that. I just spend most of my time listening to music watching movies and doing school shit.

I only got two text messages and that's it. I'm not replying because I don't feel like talking to those people. Then My mind trails off to what's been happening in the past couple days. I can't wait until I learn how to drive. Ima be every damn where. But after school tomorrow I'm going to ask Julian to take me to drug store so I can buy a pregnancy test. Well, a couple. If I'm not pregnant,then I'ma just ask Julian to take me to the hospital. If I am,then I'm just going to keep it as a secret as long as possible. I really cannot not afford to be pregnant though,financially and just overall. It's going to get in the way of school and that's literally my only ticket out of here. Maybe I shouldn't have had sex with Marco. All this worry and stress was not worth the pleasure.

I decided not to go to school. It's too late anyway. It's about twelve. I'm bored and I'm about to try something that I usually would never do. Be nice to my mother.

I get up then walk to her room. I knock on the door. "What." She yells. I walk in,tense as fuck. "Hi mom." I say trying to be nice. I'm only doing this because I'm bored and I'm in a good mood. I also wanna try it to see her reaction. She rolls her eyes. "The hell you want?" She says with an attitude. I sigh. "Why can't I just talk to you for once?" I ask. "Because I don't want you talking to me,you irritating as hell. I'm mad you ain't go to school. You need to so you can get out my face." She says. Well damn that was a little extra. I'm Finna do some risky shit. "Why my dad leave you? Is that why you don't like me?" I ask. I know I fuck up. She looks surprised,then throws a pillow at my face. "Shut the hell up you dumb ass child! All you do is walk around and get on everybody nerves,I can't wait till you move out,if you don't go off to college then I'ma kick you out at 18!" She says raising her voice. It doesn't really hurt as much as you think,she's said worse things. So I'm not really bothered by this as much. "Damn what I do to you,bye then I guess." I say then walk out her room. I do irritate her though,most of the time it's unintentional.

I walk to my room then get dressed. I'm going to the store to buy snacks and get them tests. I put on my north face jacket and grab my cross body purse then walk out. It's not cold for it to be October. It's just windy. "Aye wassup Lay." This boy Jaquan says running up to me. "Hey Jay. How's you and your sister?" I ask. His mom died in a fire last year,so since he's turning 18 in a couple months,the judge said he could stay in the apartments as long as he had a job. But he also does a little drug dealing. "We good thanks for asking,where you going?" He asks. "To the drug store,I'm Finna buy some snacks plus I wanted to walk." I say. "Where's your sister?"I ask. His sister is 8. She loves me. "She at the house, I came out to make a deal." He says.  "I need a job,I can't babysit my aunties kids nomore because she moving,and I ain't bout to rely on my daddy's checks every month." I say. "Wassup baby I'm the plug." He says opening his arms playfully. I laugh. "You ain't shit." I say.Smiling. He laughs. "I'll catch you later I got some business I need to take care of." He says jogging off in the other direction. I fucks with him.

I open the door to the place to search for the tests. I find them then grab five. Better be safe then sorry. I get the snacks then head the the register. I pay for the stuff then leave.