Life and Pregnancy

Chapter 16- Birth

This book Finna get real omm,keep reading.

Laya

"Excuse me,I think I'm giving birth right now." I say limping up to the front desk at the hospital. I can barely fucking walk or breath. "Oh sure." She says pressing a nurse button,she says something into the phone but I'm not concentrating on what she said. Some nurses come out here with a wheel chair. "Please sit here ma'am." One of them says. I sit down in the chair,they start to roll me further into the hospital.

They just start asking me questions. "Do you have a parent or guardian?" One of them asks. "Yea my mom." I say in pain. "Okay give me your name and we'll contact her as soon as possible." He says. This is going to be a long day. "Laya Williams." I tell him. He nods his head. This is bout to be painful.

I've been in labor for four hours. They claim my mama bout to come but she ain't here. It's still during school hours so I'm not bout to call Marco. I wouldn't call him till afterwards anyway. Just to tell him I'm on my way to get my shit. I know they gone keep me over night,but tomorrow,I'm driving myself back to Marcos house I don't care. I'm not feeling any pain any more because of the medicine I guess, I hope I feel like this while I'm giving birth.

My mama walks in looking high as hell. She is the last person I wanna see right now, I'm mad she gotta come. I sigh. "Ain't no need in being mad, you put your self in this position, not me." She says with an attitude. I roll my eyes. "Man shut up. You always got something to say. I ain't do shit to yo ugly ass and you bothering me, I Don't want you here but you have to be here by law. So make yourself useful and shut up." I say. "Girl who you going off on? I'm still yo mama and you have to respect me no matter what." She says. "And? I don't care if you my mama,you was never there for me any way. All you ever did was cuss me out, neglect me, and disown me! I started my period by myself and I didn't have nobody to talk to my problems about! I always tried to talk to you about how my feelings were hurt about something and you just told me to get away from you and get over it! You were never a good mother and I don't care if I disrespect you or not nobody what anybody says!" I scream. I am so done with her and her bullshit. After this I hope I never see her again. She blankly stares at me then turns away. I don't care if she hurt or not which she probably not.

That made my heart rate go up. I been crazy as hell over these 9 months. I haven't had my bipolar medicine and I've been pregnant. My emotions been everywhere.

The nurse walks in. "Hi Laya, your nine inches dilated,if you don't get the full 10 centimeters within an hour,we're going to have break your water so you can have the baby." She says. What the hell that mean? "So if I don't dilate within an hour,y'all gone give me something so I can have it?" I ask. "Correct." She says nodding her head. I blow. "Do you need anything?" She asks. "Can have I some water? Please?" I ask. "Ok sure." She says then walks out. I just wish she would hurry up and come out, I don't need no extra complications.

Well an hour has passed and she still hasn't came and I haven't dilated. I'm bored and I'm just waiting for one of these under payed nurses to walk in here. I pick up my phone then call Jamar. "Wassup." He says. "Hey, I'm in the hospital now." I say. "Is some Wong? What happened?" He says. "I'm pregnant dumb ass,it's normal when your nine months." I say sarcastically. "Oh yea,you want me to visit you?" He asks. "No,maybe tomorrow before I leave." I say. "You need somebody to pick you u0?" He asks. He starting to irritate me I just called cause I'm bored. "Nah,I'ma drive myself back to my baby daddy's house to get my stuff,then I'ma go from there." I say. "Where you gone go?" He asks. "I don't know." I say. It's just a silence. The door opens then a nurse walks in. "Ok ma'am we have to dilate you." She says putting gloves on. "Ok Jamar I gotta go,I'm bout to have this baby." I say. He chuckles. "Good luck." He says. "Ain't shit funny bitch." I say then hang up. He plays entirely too much.

These contractions hurt bad as fuck. The nurses broke my water so now the baby is coming. I have never been this scared in my life. My mama sleep. I look at her then shake my head. She's a sad sad person. She might as well get out,her reactions to things I do just doesn't bother me anymore. "Ok ma'am your going to have to push as hard as you can." She says. I ain't gone lie, I'm scared as fuck right now and I feel her head at my vagina so I guess it's time. Ain't no going back now.

I delivered about 3 hours ago. Shit that was hard. And it was painful. But it was only for a couple minutes not long. My mama still here,she ain't doing shit,we haven't spoken neither. Another nurse walks in. I swear when you pregnant in the hospital they walk in every 5 minutes, literally. "I'm sorry it took so long,we had a delay with another patient. But what would you like to name the sweet heart?"she asks smiling. I'm going to give her Marcos last name,just so I and no one else will forget. And other various reasons. "Zaria Michelle Anderson." I say. I hate his fucking last name,my baby make it popping tho. "Ok that's nice." She says writing something down. I nod my head then lay down. I'm tired as fuck.

My phone starts ringing. It's Jamar,he call all the gotdamn time. "Hello?" I say. "Did you have your baby yet? I wanna come up there." He says. "That's generous of you but yes I did have her but I'm tired I'm bout to go to sleep and take this bomb ass nap." I say damn near falling asleep. "Alright,I guess I will tomorrow then." He says. "Yea like I instructed in the first place,bye." I say then hang up. Finally damn.

My mama is in her hoeing around with one of the nurses and I can't concentrate on going to sleep cause that's weird. So basically the nurse asked me did I eat food or drink something when I was in the car then this bitch said I got something wet for you to eat. Her Hoe ass. She get on my damn nerves and if this nigga don't get out cause he giving in to it. "Yea you can have my adress." She says biting her lip. I roll my eyes. She such a square.

I took that fire ass nap and I'm ready to go. It's 6 in the morning I slept damn near 12 hours. Marco called me but I missed it. In bout to call now,he should be up anyways. It's just ringing. "Yea."he says. "Yea I had the baby,her name is Zaria,I'll be over there sometime to get my stuff ready so I can leave." I say. "Cool,it's waiting for you ,and what last name did you give her?" He asks. "Yours." I say. He blows. "Alright, i guess." He says. "Yep,I just called to return your call and to tell you wassup." I say. "Aight bye." He says. "Bye nigga." I say then hang up. Dudes feelings be so hurt.

Yea so basically the hospital said I can go tomorrow. Jamar gone drop me off and pick me up I guess,since I asked.

I just hope and pray I'ma be alright before the winter. Even though winters in LA not that bad at all. It's lowest usually about 40 but most of the time in the winter it's 60 or 60 something. I still need to be warm though.

My mom been left. Sometimes I wonder how my life would be if she cared about me like she did when I was 5. We was cool but I guess she loved my dad and the fact that he left her was too much of a burden to bear. I don't really care you not supposed to treat a child like that. I'll be good tho,I put that on my daughter.