Life and Pregnancy

Chapter 15- Is It Time?

Laya

For the past couple months I've been going to train,and the doctors. My brother finally went away to college and I got my permit. Thanks to him and Marco,and a little,just a little of Jamar too. But my brother went away to college at the very end of May. It's June now but it's only been June for a week.

I've gotten better at shooting and I understand the street life thing a whole lot more than I used to. I'm nine months now and she should be coming any day now. Marco still ain't that excited,he seems nervous. And I don't know why cause he ain't giving birth. He should tho cause he acting like a pussy.

I haven't did any jobs or anything yet. I've just been chilling. After I have my baby,I'm going to stay in a hotel for a couple of days the I have to go back to the streets,that's just how life goes. I'm going to do a mix up of drugs and hits. I figured I would get more experience and learn more and become more pro at it if I did both. I understand I'm playing an extremely dangerous game but I ain't no punk so I'ma stick it out. Jamar has been paying me to teach him some things. Since he's a highschool dropout,I decided to help him if he payed me 20$ every time. I was in honor classes so he asked for my help,the guy helped me in a way so I figured why not. He's still planning on how he's going to take down that young soon to be kingpin. I'll help but in minor ways like get info.

I've bought some stuff for her like clothes and towels and stuff. I didn't buy a car seat cause everybody knows that the hospital gives you a free car seat as a gift. It's Wednesday and I'm just chilling in the room. I'm not as nervous as you thought I would be. I have no idea why. The only thing I'm nervous about is my daughters safety but she should be fine.

What if I actually end up being something serious,like in the streets. It would just make my life hella easier and harder at the same time. I ain't trynna regret her tho,I ain't saying that at all. She didn't ask to be made or be brought into this world so why should she have to suffer? If I ever get back on my feet from working with Jamar, Marco ostrich looking ass bet not try and man up and be a good father either. True character shows in your weakest times not strongest. I got my child everything she needs,except a shelter but that fine cause it's gone get better soon.

My phone starts ringing. I pick it up and it's Jamar."Wassup." I say. "I got some more information on that one nigga,I just need his name." He says. He sounds extra excited but upset at the same time. "The young kingpin?" I ask. "Yes,and stop calling him that,it's gone become true if you keep on saying it. That's just gone make it harder to take him down."he says. "Nigga shut up,pussy. Stop being scared of the future or what you think is gone happen,that's extra stress,and I think that's worse than him having more power than he already has." I say. "You smart girl." He says chuckling. "Yea I know." I sarcastically say. "Well uh,when you supposed to be having your baby?" He asks. "She's due June 12, but honestly I don't feel a thing." I say. "How's your gun practice been going?" He asks. A couple months ago I went and bought a pistol with extra bullets. I need it cause these niggas in the street think they can easily hurt anybody,they asses is wrong." It's been aight,I mean, I just been shooting at random shit outside." I say. I also got a silencer and a shell catcher. The shell catcher is not to leave evidence when I shoot and the silencer prevents all that unnecessary noise.

"Well nigga, I wonder will our daughters be friends." He says. "That was so random it's weird,stop." I say. "You never know,they might grow up as sisters." He says snickering. "You know what, I'm tired of you,bye." I say. "Wait,don't hang up I'm bored." He says. "And I don't give a shit, I'm about to go out and do something with myself besides talk to you." I say. "Whatever man, bye." He says then hangs up.

Julian left his car here,so I be driving that. I can keep it till sometime this month cause it's not being payed for but whatever. I'm just driving around, not going anywhere specifically. I know it's nothing new,but LA is huge. I just drove past my moms house and it's hella cars there,I'm not even tempted to see what's going on in there,she probably getting a train ran through her or some shit.

I'm on my way back to Marcos crib,this drive was basically pointless. I'm just here sitting at a red light. All of a sudden,I feel this Liquid between my legs. What the hell? I look down and it's not a lot but it's still there. Now I'm just feelings random pain. Oh fucking shit. I think these are contractions. Damn man. I make a U turn then start driving myself to the hospital,this shit is insane. It hurts bad as hell right now. It would be hella easier to turn around and go to Marco house so he can take me to the hospital. But Marcos not home.

I ain't calling Jamar ass either cause I don't trust him he gone take too long,I'll fuck around and have this baby in this car fucking with him. I guess I gotta drive myself to the hospital.

Here I am driving in pain,barely making it. This shit is worse than period cramps. It feel like an automatic chainsaw is being shoved inside of me. Yes it's that fucking brutal. I'm down the street from the hospital,man I wish I could just teleport there or some shit. I can't believe I'm having this baby now.

TBC...