Life and Pregnancy

Chapter 8- Symptoms

Laya

Its been about a week in a half since we had sec and about half a week ago u haven't felt the same. Not mentally, but physically. I think I'm sick, I've been nauseous and I've been tired too. And I really don't feel like going to school but oh well.

I get ready then hop in the car with Julian, he was waiting on me. "What's wrong with you?" He asks. "Huh? Nothing." I say. I feel sick.
"You look like you sick or something, do you even feel like going to school?" He asks. "No but I want to, and I need to." I say. It's like I've been having morning sickness for the past two days. "Oh well then." He says then pulls off. I really hope this day goes by fast.

I walk into the building sick and hungry. That's another thing, I've been hungry more often. I need to go to the fucking Doctor I don't have time for this bullshit.

I slam my locker then walk to my class. "Woah,what's wrong with you?" George asks. I instantly get irritated. "This is the last time I'ma be calm after you say something dumb. Leave me alone, I don't feel like being bothered with you." I say. "I'm just trying to help." He says flashing that dumb smile. "Ok well I don't want or need your help, I was minding my own business then you just had to walk up to me." I say rolling my eyes and walking away. "You know I care right?" He says. "Mhm ok." I say stilling walking. I finally end up in my class, Marco there today. "Hey Mr, I haven't heard from you In a while." I say dropping my books on the desk next to his. "What's wrong with your hair?" He asks staring at it. It's just in a messy bun. I woke up and re did the bun, I didn't brush it or anything. I just combed it out then put it up. "I didn't feel like doing it,besides,it's nobody it impress." I say sitting down. "What about me?" He asks then kisses my neck and slightly bites my ear. It's not even a turn on anymore,I'm pissed. I wanna know what the hell is going on with my body. I push his head away. "Not in the mood." I say. He just looks at me. "What's the Problem nigga?" I say irritated. He looks away. People need to learn how to leave me the hell alone.

So I'm sitting at the lunch table liking dumb because all my friends is in the line and I'm at the table by myself. I hate when that shit happens. Finally one of my friends comes and sits down at the table. "What you doing." She asks. We just talk,nothing major. "Being bored and sick." I say eating some skittles. I'm lame as hell. "So are you really dating Marco?" She asks. I sigh. "Why?" I say. "Just askin,y'all always together." She says. "Well,I don't know ask him." I say. I don't feel like talking about him right now.

The school food is fucking disgusting. I'm more nauseous than I already was. I'm in 5th period trying to calm down my stomach by not moving too much,but it's barley fucking working. I slam my pencil down then get up and walk to the teachers desk. "Can I go to the restroom,Im nauseous." I say with my hand in my stomach. He nods his head. I run out then go down the hall to the restroom. I look in the mirror. Damn,I guess my hair is that bad then. I pull my brush out my purse,the suddenly I feel like throwing up. I rush to the toilet then throw up. This is fucking terrible. And I thought periods were bad. Maybe I'm just having period symptoms. I haven't had ine since last month. Oh well, it's not the end of the year, my cycle is probably changing. Yea, I think that's what it is.

"You can't have that." I say taking a pack of Oreos out of KKs hand. I'm at my aunties house watching her kids. This girl had like 6 Oreos already,she ain't getting nomore. She puts then runs to the hallway. I'm guessing she's going to her room. Her brother isn't doing anything but playing his xbox. They aren't even bad,they just have to have adult supervision.

I hear keys in the door then my auntie walks in. "Hey auntie." I say. "Hey. I have to tell you something important." She says. "I'm listening."I say. "I got a better job. I'm moving to Atlanta. It's going to be easier because I would have better working hours for the kids. I'm so sorry I know you need a job." She says. That just ruined my whole mood. "No it's ok." I say. I was trying to sound enthusiastic as possible. I don't want it to look like I'm mad. "It's ok. You'll be ok." She says. I don't want to be a stripper. "Thank you. Do you want me to take you home?" She asks. "Yes thanks." I say. What the fuck is going on with my life right now.

"So when you moving?" I ask as she pulls out the driveway. "In two weeks. I'm going to start packing up tonight." She says. I nod my head. " I'm just going to get a work permit. Maybe I can work at McDonald or something, I don't know." I say. I'm suddenly tired. "Yea,it will be ok. Cindy might work something out for you. Mhm Cindy ass gone be dead fucking with me." "Yea she might." I say. That's a fucking lie. She don't care about me to this day. If I were to die right now, she would be upset only because she wouldn't get a monthly Check from my dad being gone. My auntie is her sister. They don't even talk. They not close at all. I can see why. They are two different people.

I just walks in the house and no surprise, it's people every where. It smell like straight weed. I walk straight up to my room normal as hell as if there was no one here then close and lock the door. I'm tired as fuck. It's 8:00 I don't usually go to sleep until later than that but oh well. I walk to my refrigerator then get my pink lemonade brisk out. This my favorite drink it's so fucking good.

My lights are out and do is my TV. I'm dozing off and I can't wait till I'm fully sleep cuz I'm exhausted. I hear banging on my door. I ignore it. I could care less. It's eventually going to stop. I hear someone say "open the door". But I'm not going to. Matter fact I'm sleep.

I'm awake now and I feel worse than yesterday. I'm definitely not going to school. I'm drained as fuck. I accidentally went to sleep with my clothes on. I left the 250 in my pocket that my aunt gave me. I get up to put it in my safe then, when I go to lay down I hear my mama at my door. "What." I say snatching it open. She drunk as fuck. She don't even say shit she just walks away. I close my door then go lay down.

I just got a random text from Marco. He asked me where I was at. I told him I didn't feel like going to school. I miss him though, I'll admit that.

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It's been two weeks and I'm still having the same symptoms, and my period hasn't been here yet. I'm so pissed. I bet not be pregnant man. That's gon ruin everything. I'm at home being bored. I pick up my phone then call jasmine. I told her I had sex, I just never told her about what's been happening afterwards. "Hey what you doing girl." She says. "Shit nothin. I do not feel the same." I say. She decided not to go to school either. Her family not that strict on her. " I hope you ain't pregnant." She says. " I'm not. I don't know what's going on." I say. "What would yo mama do if she found out? She would go crazy." She says. "Yea I know, she already don't like me, I know she would be able to stand a mini me." I say. "Why don't you just buy some tests to be sure? "She asks. "I'm good on that. I'ma just let everything go away." I say calming myself. "Ok Lay,just incase you are,don't do too much." She says. "Can you stop coming up with fake ass scenarios,it's bullshit, I know ain't pregnant damn." I say mad as hell. I'm so fucking irritated. "Ok don't take that shit out on me,I didn't force that nigga dick in you."she says. "Whatever,I'll talk to you later." I say the. Hang up. Nobody is ever on my side,ever. Fuck the world,it ain't shit to live for.